I never want to get out of bed or do anything. Sometimes I sit under the sheets and cry about my life and everything that failed or went wrong. I cant really see the point in getting out of bed and doing something. I feel like my whole life goes nowhere. I dont even have a driving lisense or a car. If i could get my lisense i wouldnt be able to afford a car since i paid 5 grand on braces when i was 19. I dont like taking the bus cause some guy tried lifting up my skirt on the bus and another guy accidently fell on me. I didnt mean to get braces but my teeth were really bad and i was tourmented everyday in school for having buck teeth. Im 21 now and have a 5 year old. The teacher complains that he doesnt listen in school sometimes. Nobody helps me out so i watch him by myself. I dont drink, have friends, or party and even if i wanted to i wouldnt do it because i just dont see the point in having any fun with life. I seem to not be able to make friends. Nobody really talks to me in school and i feel left out and alone all the time. Some guys tell me nobody likes me so i guess i accepted that i wont ever have any friends or a boyfriend. I used to have a boyfriend but he dumped me after s*x. I also went out with someone at 17 but after sleeping with him he told me his real age was 37 and some other guy always used me for s*x when i was 18 and he was 29 and is now married to some girl with fake b***s so now i dont even try with any guys and i feel soo crappy all the time and wish i could find someone but i dont try to do anything about it, all i did was accept the fact that no guy really truly likes me and i dont even date or talk to any guys because of everything that happened. Normally guys just reject me if they find out i have a son so i just let them know that i do have one so i dont have to deal with the agony of getting hurt emotionally, i much rather just get rejected
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