Can you help me?? i feel pathetic = (?

Question

hi, I'm 18, i got pregnant in june from my 19 yr old boyfriend in, i was 17 at the time, not to far into my pregnancy(6 weeks) i was experiencing very severe vomiting and very nauseous all the time. and i found out i had hyperemesis gravidarum, for one whole week couldn't keep anything, and i mean absolutely nothing down, up all night throwing up. i couldn't take it. i was very weak and tired, i didn't even feel pregnant just very sick with the flu or something. so i cant cope with the fact that because of my selfishness wanting to be normal and eat something i had an abortion just one day after my 18th birthday which i spent on my bedroom floor puking my guts out(sorry). and it worked just minutes after walking out into the recovery room sitting drinking a soda for the first time in a week. but im haunted by this baby, i wanted to keep it, raise the little miracle. i love kids, and theres nothing more i want then a little baby. my own, and it hurts im very depressed about life. i dont think i even diserve life for the little one i took, my own. i cant ever recover, there is a girl i know about 12 weeks now and she is killing her baby, drinking and doing drugs, idk, why does she deserve this and not me. i dont know what to do with myself, i still wake up everyday hoping im still pregnant even though i know im not, knowing i already got my period back, help me!! and thanks for readying my bundle of nothing.

Answer 1

Wow, sweetie, you are sure going through a lot right now.  A lot of what you are feeling is normal after getting an abortion.  All I can say is that I will be praying for you.  

Be prepared for heartless answers and name calling on these boards.  I strongly suggest you see a counselor or call a crisis center for some help, because I doubt you'll get much from some of the jerks here.

You really need to talk to someone about this, okay?  Between your current physical health condition and your mental health condition, you really need to get some help, okay?  Please do - it's what's best for you now.

Answer 2

sorry to hear that it is a shame. but let me tell you. pregnancy is not always just fun and everyone is happy and its perfect, us women go through so much to give birth and these are just things we have to overcome. there are so many surprises on the way that you wouldn't even think of. i wish all the luck for the future.