Can you interpret this weird / scary dream?

Question

i was in a grocery store (my favorite job to date and was 20 years ago in HS), i was looking around isles but couldn't find what i was looking for. i ran into my current boss, who i am friends with. i don't remember our conversation but i remember feeling really guilty. then the meat and scary part of the dream....

a hearse backed into a part of the store. i went and opened the back door and found a covered body on a wheeled slab. i placed all my stuff from my pocket (keys, wallet, ipod) and put it by the persons head. i saw his head under the cover but didn't know him. i pulled the body out and started moving it thru the store. then someone i didn't know, in a military outfit came and took over moving the body for me and asked me if i had any idea how to handle a body. i said no and started grabbing my belongings. i felt great guilt and embarrassment for moving the body and making the mistake of putting my belongings on the slab. i dont know how, but i knew the person was murdered.

then all of the sudden, i'm at the location of the murder, back in time - before the murder happened. it was back at my recent ex's home town. i was in a car with the person (who i still don't know who it was. i think i was "invisible". just before i found out what happened -how the person was murdered, i woke up.

thanks for reading all that. i realize it is pretty fragmented and out there. thanks for your opinions.

Answer 1

The grocery store represents a time when life was simpler and you were probably pretty happy.  Then, along came bigger responsibilities (your boss).  Even though you two are friends, there are times you probably long for simpler, happier times.

I don't know how long you've been dealing with depression, but the hearse backing up to the back of the store represents the death of happiness in your life.  Remember, the store represents a more carefree existence, so the hearse has arrived to represent an end to carefree, happy simplicity.

The body represents your emotional state.  Your entire identify is wrapped up in this emotional death state (depression, grief)  This is why you put your keys, wallet, ipod by the dead man's head.  They represent your identify, and your state of mind is depressed.  You may be building your entire existence right now around this depression or whatever caused it in the first place.

I don't know if you are chronically depressed (genetically, all the time depresses) or temporarily depressed, due to burn out, crisis, stress, grief.  Or both.  Perhaps some really hurtful things have happened to cause or increase your depression.  But, it is a MAJOR issue in your life right now.

You pull the body out of the hearse and start moving it around the store.  Perhaps this represents you trying to go through your normal routines, draggingg the weight of grief or depression around with you.  The military person is probably a professional of some kind who is helping your deal with this "dead body" of depression.  This person asks you do you now how to handle this dead body (perhaps the death of a relationship, death of a dream or goal, whatever).  You realize that you do not know how to deal with it alone.  You feel embarrassed for being in this condition, and try to take back your belongings (your identity).  You are trying to reclaim your true identity, and your life.  You are embarrassed for investing so much of yourself in this grief, or whatever caused your grief.  The fact that the person was murdered suggests there was a cause behind the "death". Something happened to cause your depression, perhaps, instead of it being an inherited state.

Maybe you made a "life or death" commitment (put your belongings on the slab)... and that trust was broken

The location of the murder reveals the killer's identity.  I think you can figure that out for yourself.

You cannot take the killer to court, but you can get your identity and your life back.  It might take professional help and (military) discipline to do it, but you want to get your life back, I can tell.

Pray and ask God to heal your heart.  Ask Him to wash away the pain and mistakes of the past and let you be resurrected or reborn into a new life of joy and freedom.  Ask Him to renew your mind so that you're not stuck in grief and old habits and patterns that are killing you.    Rebirth and resurrection that happen after a "death" such as this often lead us into greater life and joy than we have know before, because we leave behind less mature patterns of behavior and relationships and have more wisdom for future choices.

Ask God to give you wisdom in ALL things that you may walk a path of wisdom and of joy.  I pray for you, for healing, renewal and joy.

God bless you!

Fairelight

Answer 2

I don't know a lot about you but here's goes. First the symbolism: the grocery store symbolizes the need for something physical in your life-like being nutured or physical affection. Seeing your boss symbolizes your lack of freedom or some kind of limitations you are experiencing right now. Feeling guilty represents some negative feeling you have about yourself. The hearse represents unfinished business and the need to move on from your current situation. The dead body means that you are being negatively influenced by someone. The guy in the military clothes represents your feeling of being repressed by someone or something. Going back to your ex's hometown symbolizes that you have not emotionally dealt with your past relationship concerning him. Being a passenger in a car means that you don't feel that you have much control over your life. The murder means that you are depressed.

Now for your interpretation. You are feeling pretty bad about yourself right now and may actually be experiencing clinical depression. Your depression appears to stem from the relationship with your ex and unresolved feelings you have about that relationship or the negative control or repressin that your ex still has over you (this control could be emotional or physical). You are very lonely and are craving some affection-maybe even from him.You are beginning a new phase in your life and you are very scared to go forward because you have not dealt with what happened in the relationship. You don't feel in control of anything.

Find a way to sort out the past relationship with your ex so that you can rid yourself of the negative influences he had on you. It's going to be hard to start over again but try one little thing at a time. Good luck.