Can you please help me? Please?

Question

Am I evil? Can you please help me?

Can you help me? I need to know something ok?

Sometimes I feel like there is something evil in me.

It comes out very rarely - but when it does - it seems like I breath more like an animal. I have an evil look in my eyes and I feel so much rage in that moment.

Question: I had a dream last night where the lady who plays the exorcist's mother. Only in my dream she was my mother and walking towards me. I felt this evil feeling in my dream - like it wanted my soul but I am a devoted Christian.

I kind of feel a pull from both sides - esp. in my dreams.

Last night was the weirdest. I was walking on this dirt road all alone - grey sky - and this truck was coming towards me. II felt so lonely and that moment felt so ominous. The wind was blowing hard in that dream and that truck coming toward me represented something evil. I just felt like I was evil and that scene just reminded me of that "pull". Then I had my next dream where that lady was my mother and wanting me to be her evil child.

I woke up freaked out and scared.

What do you honestly think? What is with that dream man?

It happened again today. My worst day today. I felt that thing in me. Breathing weird and feeling rage again. People can sense it and feel it - so they look at you strange - which makes me hate them even more. It is a strong thing that makes me a mean person. Like I laughed today cause I wanted to throw my drink at a truck driving by - in that moment I felt compelled to do it and laugh. But I didn't.

I don't know what to do sometimes as it takes over me and is so strong. I never do anything though.

My teacher told me when I was young I had no Conscience.

Then my friend (a doctor) said if someone shaved my head they would find 3 digits on it. Then my Auntie's friend called me a devil one time when she was mad at me.

Let me know ok.

Answer 1

A dream is nothing more then your recolections of the day's events. So maybe you were reflecting on your personality or such before bed or during the day; happens to me all the time.

Answer 2

Well honestly I'm not so sure your evil and if you were having that in a bad dream, just remember the differences between reality and dreaming good or bad? Best of luck!

Answer 3

If you're truly scared then talk to a priest.  Whether or not you have something in you...they'll be willing to help you.  

Answer 4

i don't believe that you are evil (its a harsh word that should only be used in a severe situation); having feelings of rage and hate are completely normal things for a person to feel, i suggest that you contain your feelings and then redirect them in a positive manner such as art, poetry, exercise, or something along those lines. but, please don't use your feelings against another living creature and be careful how you express your feelings because others can interpret it in a negative manner. i wish you the best of luck and hope that my advise helps you.

Answer 5

If you are what you say (a devoted Christian), than it is the evil trying to bring you to his side. It happened even to the ones who were proclaimed the Saints.

Answer 6

I don't think you're evil mate...... are you drinking excessive amounts of alcohol or using amphetamines or even taking prescribed medicine in really large doses ??  I'm not trying to be sarcastic or offensive by asking these questions... far from it..... i am a recovered alcoholic.... haven't had a drink in 6 years ......  however, when i was consuming in excess of 5 litres of whatever alcohol i could get my hands on i used to have the most hideously graphic and blood and gore filled violent dreams .....  in them sometimes my whole family would be murdered ..... i started having massive and terribly agressive mood swings, i was totally paranoid that there were people watching me, talking about me ........  it was alcoholic psychosis mate.... stark pity the Doctors diagnosed me as bipolar / schizophrenic and pumped me to the eyeballs with vast amounts of antipsychotics for a few precious years of my life.........  that is until i saw the light and ditched the medicine.

The point i'm trying to make is that excessive abuse of alcohol, medicines, drugs, junk food, man made sugar can all have diabolical affects on the way our brain performs and functions.

peace 2 u