Can you please help me? please read me ok?

Question

Hello Everyone: (This is a general email to all in my address book) I have a Question. All of you have to send me your opinion on this one ok. Ok, so I had a dream last night about the lady who plays the exorcist's mother. Only in my dream she was my mother and walking towards me. She was encouraging me to be evil. I felt this evil feeling in my dream - like it wanted my soul. In my dream my heart was saying "no" but this evil force was coming towards me fast & hard.

Sometimes I feel a "pull" from both sides of evil or good. I see this a lot in my dreams.

Last night was the weirdest. In my dream I was walking on this dirt road all alone - dark grey skies and the wind was blowing hard. The scene had a very ominous tone to it. As I was walking on this dirt road this truck was coming towards me. I believe the truck represented something evil. I just felt like I was evil and scared at the same time in that moment. The next segment of my dream involved that lady who played the exorcist's mother. she was walking towards me and looked at me like I was evil. She was trying to convey I had to be her evil child.

What a weird dream. I felt like this evil thing wanted my soul. I felt like it was trying to tell me I am truly evil no matter how many times I attend church or convince myself I am Christian. What do you honestly think?

My History:

My teacher told me when I was young I had no Conscience.

Then my friend (a doctor) said if someone shaved my head they would find 3 digits on it. However, he said I was not completely evil. I'm only half or 75% evil or something like that. He said I was only the neighbour of the beast - so the 3 digits on my head would be 668. FYI - my friend is a total geniusus and is usually right about things. I remember he always use to say one thing to me everyday when I got home from school (University): "So Josie, how was school? Did you get into any fights today?

I also remember when I was a kid my Auntie's friend called me a devil when she was mad at me.

Also, just recently I had to take a bus as I locked my keys in my car. I guess I upset this lady at the bus stop.I provoked her cause I thought she had a staring problem. She was fuming mad at me. I laughed. She said something that made me think though. She said: "I have been to this country from England for 40 years now and I have never ever met anyone like you before!".

Also, I sometimes like to say and do funny things so I can giggle later. Most times I control those compulsions. Today I laughed to myself cause I wanted to throw my drink at a truck driving by - in that moment I felt compelled to do it and laugh. But I didn't do it. I just laughed to myself. (This was on campus today)

Am I evil? If no, am I on my way? Let me know ok people.

Answer 1

dont think nothing of it, it is just a dream

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Answer 2

I think your biggest problem is letting other people define you. Like the woman from england...she could have been insane and says the same to everyone...

Or your friend saying you were the neighbor of the beast, and that your number would be 668; um that sounds like a joke or flirting to me.

Your teacher saying you had no conscience...um, I know like me and everyone I know has had that told to them at least once by some irrational authority figure that was verbally reprimanding us for something...

The devil thing...there again...just something some people say...I used to call my friend's daughter a "demon-angel" because she was spunky and mischevious yet so sweet too...I even dressed her up like that for halloween one year

I call my friends evil if they don't share popcorn with me, for example. I am joking when I do it and they know. Or when guys have been flirting with me they have said stuff like "you're bad" or "you're just evil"...people say things the don't mean to either be mean or funny, and maybe you have trouble telling the difference or something.

However, even if they were all being serious (which i HIGHLY doubt), you really shouldn't let other people decide how YOU are.

As for the desire to throw something at a truck and laugh...Ok, that is just plain evil....like omg, what kind of person would have a thought like that? :) just kidding

In reality, everyone is a mix of bad and good....also everyone has had impulsive thoughts about doing something like throwing a drink a truck...I remember once I was at a christian pizza party on campus, and was sitting on the couch behind some guy that was on the floor, and we were all watching a movie, and i thought "what would happen if i just kicked him in the head? like everyone would be shocked I bet...and what would he do? would he fight me? naw, he'd probably be like shocked" and that went on for a few minute and made me laugh. It's not that I had the desire to hurt him, I just thought the total randomness of something like that was kinda funny

Answer 3

That is a very interesting, and scary, dream

It seems that you are having doubts about a desicion you have made or doubting an action you took towards someone

If any of this sounds vaguely familiar, then reflect on it analyse it from others point of view, and your own.  Dreams, though usually very vivid and meaningful, can be untrue or very over dramatic about something that has happened to you.

Hope that helps (:

Answer 4

you can interpret dreams in many ways that could relate to things going on in your life that would offer acceptable reasoning, however when we interpret a dream it will be explained in how we saw it,how we felt to what it's about and that, we assume to be the nature of our dreams. when really it's only giving part of the picture. just like rumors when you hear only part of the gossip,even most of a story told, you can get things wrong through not having the full/correct picture of a situation. when we have the right information we build more of a true picture to the story that fits in what we know.  in dreams what we don't see gets left out. i see it like the details we talk about of dreams are signs of a distraction,correct the distraction and probably will right itself in time, but only until distraction averts you again (i am talking of ongoing dreams) so really,if something like a dream is disturbing then that signals in what state it's in. that gives us a portion of the picture. therefor you need to also take into account the structure/framework to interpret a fuller picture. i.e.trying to run away from someone chasing you,could well describe your feelings of being scared of something that is obvious to relate to in your life and normally would not be a too much of a problem psychologically. if watching a scene like this we see the setting surroundings that also add that can lead to another picture that is first formed from what we initially see.  as for the coincidental remarks made towards you,i think could possibly be a choice in your perception influenced so as to make it easier to understand the dream. if your dreams are telling you something remember the details are the lead to the full  picture. thats how we learn to understand,.

Answer 5

It's impossible to have no conscience, it comes with every human being. I have creepy dreams like that too, there are ways of interpreting these dreams in an understandable way, dreams are just unconscience thinking.

I don't think you're evil, it's just your thought process, it affects everyone. :)

Answer 6

My concern is not your dream ; but your mental health . I would consult a good doctor and explain him what is going on with me . THose compulsions you have are signs that ; maybe it could be the beginning of a kind of O C D ; but I am NOT a doctor so do not get all upset