i have schizophrenia and get in the worse mood swings imagginable and get very suicidal, but now, the idea is staying with me, being depressed longer then i usually am. i just want to give this life up on earth and live with him and be in paradise. i dont want to kill myself but i have a feeling my disease will take over me and lead me to it. i just want to know that if you love God and believe him with all your heart, if you can still go to heaven
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