Can you tell me the problem with this?

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Not in a horrible way though...

If i feel down/upset/hopeless etc,etc a lot of the time and nothing gets better...no matter how hard i try or what i do. If everything is pretty unstable and to make things better i reckon things would have to get a lot worse first.

I've realised today that i have no one that really cares about me. It's all fake, for show. Can't explain this but i know i'm right here...

There is an answer to this though. I've taken MDMA before and was happier than ever, it was like the things which caused me pain all just went away. I know there are risks to this...but the way i see it is that if i die i die. You know, i'd rather live only one more year drugged up and happy than a whole life living the way i am now.

Noone cares about me so noone would be hurt. So you can't call me selfish and when i do die i'd give my money to a good cause and leave eveything i own to charities etc.

To me this plan seems flawless. Noone looses out.

Is there a problem? It seems like everything is covered. I even have a little money saved up which i could use so wouldn't need to worry with work anymore.

Answer 1

How do you know no one cares about you. I highly doubt that. It is just an effect of the depression making you feel that way. Why dont you get some fresh air, exercise, mental help from a doctor (i'm not into perscriptions as an answer either) and make new friends who do care about you.

You have waaaay more options then death or a life under perscriptions.

Answer 2

could you not try drugs from the doctor that are safer? if you think no one cares and that theres no reason to live unhappy really then nothing anyone can say will help you as you probably know. im the same.

if you feel ur plan is flawless, then it will be to you. if you dont mind dying, and would rather go ahead with your plan then good luck, and all the best x