Can you tell what I am talking about?

Question

Paranoid Painting

Strokes made mad on a page

a picture painted in avid raging fear

The brush bends

under weight of emotions’ fervor

a forever lingering shadow

on the canvas of the mind

leaving behind no comforting word

when pain is allowed to gain the hand

Angst demands you pay it dues

all through your days and nights

you gnaw on thoughts not your own

seeing sights that hold you tight

Then you start to think

that you are being hunted

by everyone around you

when the truth is

it is not always all about you

Morbid paranoia portrays the world

in darker shades all aimed at you

when in truth

it is your own mind who is the enemy

not an entity called the World…

-Can you tell what I am trying to say? …Or do I even know?...

Answer 1

painting a dark picture from life events.

Answer 2

I could try, but it hurts my heads way to much to admit that I can feel every bit of what you are portraying.

Answer 3

You paint a starkly terrifying picture of one oppressed by paranoia.  The image of "Strokes made mad...on the canvas of the mind" is very powerful.  I believe you are saying that it is not the World that is the enemy, but a terrible trick your mind plays on you...."it is your own mind that is the enemy"...and that this trick of the mind is rooted in emotions. There have been times when I have been afflicted with paranoia, and I don't think a more meaningful and haunting picture could be drawn than that created by your words.  Thank you.

Answer 4

Don't give me or yourself, any c**p about not knowing what this means. This is an expression of feelings so deep, so stark, and so frightening that you cannot possibly have experienced them and expressed them without knowing. You question whether you yourself know what all this means, not because you don't know, but because it's so scary. And so the first thing I need to do is change the condition of having no comforting word. This work not only displays your great artistry, with which we are already familiar. It is also an act of great courage on your part. ( I cannot believe you are writing about someone else.) So let's see if I know what you know: #1 You have a problem. #2 You are not sure how to deal with it. #3 You are frightened.

The very act of writing, and then presenting the poem, may be a statement that you are willing to change, and it may express a willingness to accept the strength, hope and experience from others who have suffered from similar situations. I have one suggestion. Change the pronoun from "you" to "I." That will increase its honesty, intensity and, yes, scariness.

A part of the dues that I still need to pay, consists of supporting others who still suffer. You have my email address.

P.S. It's a good poem, a very good poem.

Answer 5

Whew!

If a lot of that goes on in my head I'm seeking help.

Interesting portrayal of a mind sinking into a dysfunctional abyss.