Cancer taking life of loved one...?

Question

My grandfather just found out he has liver cancer...They don't know the prognosis, but I'm really sad about this I cant stop crying and I can't eat...My job took alot of my time for the past 2 years and I hardly spent any time with him at all, I feel terrible...I want to call him, and stop down, but I feel like he is upset I don't see/call them much. I feel so awkward, like, I just show up out of the blue and be like, "oh, how are you?" what am I suppossed to do? How to I overcome this? I want to spend time with him but I don't have the energy, it sounds so selfish and I HATE myself right now...I just want him to know I love him, and that I'm sorry for being such a disappointment...I'm sorry but I'm really upset and I have no one else to talk to cuz I'm a lowlife loser friggin pillhead (just to deal with the pain I've felt for many years prior to this)...again sorry

Answer 1

i just got over fighting prostrate cancer with my husband and like you i couldnt eat or stop crying but i realized that they are feeling more emotions than i could ever be feeling. and i needed to be with him if he needed me and spend all the time that i could. luckily the surgery  went great. but you cannont put a value on your time with someone that is dying.

Answer 2

If you don't take the time to visit now you will not have many more chances to do so.  Create the energy!  You will regret it if you don't.