Im 16 years old and the first 2 months of this summer has been good until my girlfriend broke up with me. And in my head im like "ok maybe she just wants to be friends. I was pretty sad for the first week then i started movin on. Then i recently found out that its a strong possibility that she broke up with me for another boy or that she may have already been cheating on me. And all the pain came back but it hit me harder. Ive been feelin lonely even though ive been goin out with friends (i was at dorney park yesterday actually. i had a great time) and im havin anxiety, depression, always waitin for this girl to call me cuz ive been bored (she hasnt called me since we broke up a 2 or 3 weeks ago.) Im not the type that goes around chasing girls askn for numbers. i prefer to find love rather than chase it. Before i found this girl i felt the same way but without the anxiety and constant sadness but after we broke up it has gotten to an all time low. I live in the ghetto parts of north philly and youd probably think i can easily find a girl around here but im not like other guys that are looking for s***s and hoodrats. The girl i was dating was pretty decent (or at least i thought she was). Shes from the better part of philadelphia but her cousins are from north philly and she likes to hang around them alot and shes tryin to act like somethin shes not. I met her at a sweet sixteen (quiencenera) and not on the street ...So anyway finding another decent girl (but i dont want a boring one tho) is going to be a *****. I go to an all boys school so finding a date for junior prom is goin be hard too. but really i jus want a girl that i can like and be friends with but everyone is just so fake these days. the feeling of having someone love you and loving them back is jus so good and the anxiety comes from fear of not having that feeling again. please help
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