There's this guy I've known for my whole life (15 years), our moms were friends when they were pregnant with the two of us, so we've grown up together. Our families get together for dinner every sunday, and other than this, we see each other three times a week at least.
We tease each other constantly, we have ticklefights, wrestling matches over stuff we both want, he picks me up and dumps me in the sea when we go to the beach, he slings his arm around my shoulders, and hugs me whenever possible, but this stuff never really goes beyond friendly boundaries.
My little sister and his little sister are the same age as each other, and they're best friends too. They're always trying to set us up together because they want us to get married when we grow up so that they can be sisters in law (hahaa).
When we go out to watch movies or with friends or whatever, we always play-fight over who pays for the food, or the taxi, or movie tickets, or whatever.
Last year we "dated" for about a week, but I broke it off because I really just saw him as a friend and it felt kinda weird dating my best guy friend. One month later, he went away to summer camp and got a girlfriend there. He dumped her a week after getting back from camp because she was "clingy and annoying and fake."
This year, on valentines day, he gave me a rose, and I accepted it, but I made sure he knew that I just saw him as a best friend. 1 week later he was back with the girl he dumped a year ago.
He's still "together" with her, but they never talk, and he avoids her and doesn't reply to her smses and emails and stuff. They never meet up, but their facebook status says they're in a relationship, and he's always talking to me about how they kiss and make out and stuff, he says he's giving me tips so that when I get a boyfriend again I won't suck at kissing.
The thing is, I think I might be falling for him.
No matter what, he can always make me laugh or blush. For some reasaon, every time I see him, I can't wipe this goofy smile off my face, and his face is a mirror image of mine, goofy smile and all. We can talk about anything, and I can be myself around him because I've known him forever. When we watch movies with friends or families or whatever, he always makes it so we end up sitting next to each other.
My female friends sit there smirking whenever they see us talking (apparently it is very amusing to watch us....), and the second he leaves they insist that the two of us are "absolutely in love with each other, but you two just don't see it", but he's got a girlfriend, even though they don't talk much.
My question is, do I really like him that way? And if I do, have I missed my chance by breaking up with him the first time we went out, and then telling him I just saw him as a friend when he gave me a rose?
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