Could getting my period back mean im gaining weight or getting fatter? :( please help?

Question

so sophomore year i was hospitalized for an eating disorder and depression. i have since recovered and am now a senior in high school. but in april i weighed 135 lbs and i was 5'5''. im 17 years old. i was simply sick of being flabby, fat, and gross and unfit. so i joined the ymca. and i have been working out ever since. i am now 115 lbs.

i eat extremely healthy. low fat/fat free foods, lots of veggies, lots of fruits, whole grain bread, whole foods, fat free yogurts, fiber cereals, whole grain pastas, salads, no fried/greasy/high sugar/high fat/sodas.

just real healthy.

I am much happier with my body because i can run longer and stuff, but i still feel gross/fat/and just...unsatisfied. but that is besides the point.

in june i had my last period. june 2nd. and i have not had one since then. its weird because im not like underweight i could probably afford to lose a few more pounds actually.

but i lost my period.

my mom like freaked out and sent me to the doctor and she said if i dont get it bac by the end of september i have to get my blood drawn. and test my hormones/pituitary gland...

what will that test prove anyway? whats the point? because its past end of august and i still havent had it.

but i have a main question. i tihnk i may be getting it soon because im starting to break out a bit (which i kind of do before i get it), and ive been bloated.

if i do get it, now i kind of have this fear that that means ive gained weight or ive been eating too much fat or i am getting fatter.

i havent been able to run/exercise as much as before becuase i have practice 4 days a week. so im kind of worried.

please help me.

thank you a lot.

Answer 1

isn't losing your period a good thing?

Like you never have to worry about putting on a period in your panties, you can run anytime you want, you don't have to deck your calender, have s*x whenever you want and can go swimming whenever you want! What is bad about losing your period? I never want my period to come back ever again!

Answer 2

By reading your post, you are not recovered. You may be better than you were but your mind is still in anorexic/ED mode. Getting your periods back means you are getting healthier. You need a little bit of fat in order to function the way God intended. With all the exercise you most likely lost so much body fat that you also lost your periods. This means your body was shutting down and starting to die! Do not lose any more weight! I can promise you that when you have an ED and you want to lose weight because you feel fat that once you lose that weight, you will still feel fat and want to lose more. you will never be happy with yourself if you continue to lose weight.

  My daughter is anorexic and recovering. I asked her if she likes herself more now than she did when she was 97 LBS. and she said yes. She currently weighs 114 LBS at 5'2". She is much happier with herself than she was when she was thinner. When she was 97 LBS. she was freaking out because she wanted to weigh 90 LBS. We all knew that weight wouldn't make her happy either. she looked sick and the world saw it and disapproved. Her mind told her that they disapproved because she was so fat but in reality, they disapproved because she was so sickly thin.

  Don't even think about losing another pound and stay away from the scale. It is not your friend and you will not be any better of a person because you weigh less. People will love you for who you are when you learn to love yourself at the weight you are at. thin will never be thin enough.

Answer 3

That's a lot to read.

Sounds like you still have a serious eating disorder whether you believe it or not.

If you exercise too much, you can lose your period.

Answer 4

If you have a fear of gaining weight simply because of your period, then it sounds you're dipping into your eating disorder again.  

Answer 5

I doubt you're exercising too much to lose your period. What is far more likely is that you aren't eating enough and unable to sustain your period due to a nutritional deficit. The blood work will see if there is a hormonal reason involved and it will also give a read out of all of your nutritional levels. If there are indeed nutritional problems, they'll be able to see exactly what.