Dealing with guilt....how?

Question

I have been going through a dysphoric manic episode, and it has completely destroyed me morally and in the eyes of many people.

This started about 3 months ago. I would be angry and enraged out of nowhere and do bad things to people, like be rude, insult them, fight them, destroy my family's things. Each time i did something, I then had hours of guilt. Intense guilt, guilt that i didn't know could be possible or ever hurt so much. Like overguilt, it didn't even have to be that serious, i would still feel guilty.

Then in the past 2 weeks, i have broken down emotionally, and the emotions are EVERYWHERE. I do something good, and i feel guilty, i do something to help someone, i find something to be guilty about. I told my best friend for 19 years that i am bipolar, and he actually took it greatly.

Then I went home and felt guilty for telling him, i don't know why, i felt like this for 2 days.

Its like i feel i have hurt everybody and every action now, weather good or bad just gives me the feeling of horrible guilt.

Its driving me nuts, and its in this situation I can't think of the bad things that will happen if i committed suicide (how would my loved ones feel, etc,) and start thinking about how it will be a better place without me, where people won't have to suffer my mood swings and stupid behavior......

Answer 1

The truth shale set you free. If you are feeling guilty confess, find the people you did wrong to and ask for their forgiveness.  We all get angry and we all hurt others, but we can also help one another. You might be ashamed of all the bad you've done but don't focuses on that instead think of the good you can do, find a good cause that you are interested in and try to help it. Now these are all good but if you want to truly fill guiltless then you must confess your sins to the only one that can take away your pain, that is Jesus.  

Answer 2

Sounds like you need some professional help and possibly some medication. Call your local hospital and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist. He/she can prescribe some medication that can help control your manic behavior. The hospital may also be able to provide some information about support groups for people with bipolar disorder.

Good luck.

Answer 3

Guilt is a tough one to get rid of, but if it's a major problem, which it seems to be, talk to your doctor and get a referral to a psychiatrist . Psychiatrists are trained to help you understand and get control of your feelings and your problems. You might start to feel relief within one session.

Good luck.

Answer 4

This is why ppl like you and me work with psychiatrists on finding meds that work without undue side effects.  The mood swings are h**l.  The meds are not nearly as bad.  If you want to feel better, responsibly manage your health as if it were a heart condition or any other problem.  Work with a doctor.  Shy of that, there is nothing I can tell you about making the guilt better.  It is part of the episode.  It is out of proportion.  It is the illness.  It is not rational.  Go get help.  When you are stabilized you can figure out if you actually do have anything to really feel guilty about.  The only real thing I see is that you choose to live unmedicated and have these periods that cause pain and concern to those who care most about you.

Answer 5

man guilt is always hard to deal with and  going through what you have done and realizing it is a huge step the next step is talking to the people who you have hurt and that takes a lot of self esteem. many people have done many wrong things but taking medication will not undo what you have done. you have to face what you did and apologize to those you hurt. it is never late. if you need any one to talk to to help you in each step, you are more then welcome to email me at [e-mail]

the sooner you start the process the sooner you are able to forgive yourself for what has happened

best of luck.