Depressed over life and school?

Question

When I was younger, I had tons more fun and enjoyed life, in fact, only two years ago in middle school, but when I went to high school I got depressed since last year. I'm a sophomore now, and I don't know if I can wait 3 more years until college.

All of my closest friends went to different high schools, the friends I have now, well I can't relate to them like my old ones, and I don't think there's anyone that can, because it's not a very good school. I still keep in touch with my old friends when I can, but they don't go on AIM much, and don't have time to hang out much either.

The teachers can't teach very well either, for example my Chinese teacher tests us on characters she didn't tell us what they meant, and speaks in Cantonese even though not everyone knows it, and my Chemistry teacher speaks in a thick accent which you have to try really hard to understand, and the band teacher doesn't know anything about music when I took it last year. It's affecting my grades negatively. Sure, there are some good teachers, but the majority of them aren't very good. Anyone I know will tell me I'm one of the smartest people they know, and even with the crazy teachers I still have a 3.8 GPA, but I have no idea how long I can keep it before these teachers s***w it up. Also, the classes are set up really badly, like no AP physics and no history class in 9th grade. There aren't any interesting clubs, it's just like academic clubs, and race clubs (Russian, Japanese, Filipino, etc). Overall I hate my school, and almost everything about it. Choosing this school was the worst decision of my life so far.

Also, my brother is going to college, and I thought I wasn't going to miss him because all he does is sit at his computer all day, but it was great to have someone who can help you when there's something I don't know and I can always talk to at home, when I can't talk to my dad. My mom also died when I was 6, and I think I'd be a lot better off if I had a mom.

The only escape where I don't feel bored or depressed is music, piano, tv, and exercising.

Is this normal to feel like this, given my situation? What can I do to stop feeling depressed?

Answer 1

Hey i went through depression and i am on medication for it. I am freshman. There is differencece between depression and sadnessss. Depression is a anxiety chemical unbalance. The feeling of anxiety is a biochemical change in your mind and sometimes it is out of wak. Yes you are totally normal if you feel suicidalal then please tell someonene by tellin someonene when i was depresseded i saved myself from myself. Also not feeling this way only when you are distracted by music movies etc. is normal when you have depressionon it is the only way to feel numb to not have to feel the pain. Ask your parents to see a therapist and don't be ashamed if you have real depression. You are in my prayers :)

Answer 2

I don't know what to say. But I always feel better whenever I read this story:

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Good luck!

Answer 3

I know it's not much, but have you ever tried writing? It can help so much when you don't have anyone to confide in. Seeing the words that are how you feel on the page...it just does something. It makes you feel better, like you can control the situation, because, after all, it's only words on paper.

Maybe you could even write an autobiography, or a collection of memoirs. They don't all have to be happy ones, and you wouldn't even have to share them, but you would feel better after writing.

Answer 4

hi friend,

i real feel for you and the lonliness u r undergoing.

u need to have just 1 good friend rather than have couple of just friends.

keep in touch with mails, join some social service club or church group. since u can play music u will be in great demand in these groups.

i am happy you have not got spoilt your youth with bad companies and trying to focus on your studies.

do get some extra books on those subject u feel bit weak and try to work them out.

keep in touch and all the best.