Depression, abuse, and advice help?

Question

Ever since I can remember I never had it easy. My dad was in and out with other people I witnessed everything the fighting, the beatings etc.. but, my parents planned to stay together till me and my older brother graduated. So now I finally graduated and planning to leave to college this fall..

but, times right now are the worst they ever been. Since I can remember my dad has ALWAYS abused me both mentally and physically. I pretty much keep to myself. I don't think there is not one day I don't get yelled at.. i'm not a bad kid sure I admit I may have a bit of an attitude but, I don't do anything bad.. I don't recall ever. I'm always sad since I was a child I was never happy and some where in the back of my mind I always remember being molested by my cousin. I remember it so vividly but, sometimes I don't want to believe it happened.

And today when my dad came home we got into a fight and he tried to beat me up and break my door down he said that he's taking my car back and all my money for school (which he has not given me yet) and I believe him...

Basically, i'm broke have no car is there hope for the hopeless? I really want to go to school any advice on how to get through this?

Also, do you believe all this is going to take a great toll on my life? does this even count as abuse? all I really want is to be happy i've been so emotionally drained I don't know where to start..

Thanks

Answer 1

Anna first let me say your story has touched me. My father was abusive too and now that i'm grown I find it hard to forget what he did as a child to me. mentally I push thru it physically I have the scars. Just remember that when we grow up we become who we want to  be and I decided I wanted no part of where I was so I found ways to help myself. There are FASA and grants for kids who don't have money to go to school you can also do something called workstudy at the college and take a part time job . If there is a will there is a way. Get into a good group for support. Don't let the toll build up let it go life is just to short... Good luck I will pray for you.

Answer 2

all the things he has done to you is abuse and for you to have put up with him all your life you deserve to have money for school maybe you should see a counselor so you can talk about all this but i think that's grate that you want to go to school and make something for your self .hopefully your dad will cool off and help you  

Answer 3

Talk to a counsler, if he hits you to hard make you bleed or even gives you scars just call the cops(child abuse...). Just hope and pray that you'll dad will realize what hes doing.

Answer 4

Step 1: Ensure your emotion is controlled daily. Don't over reacted, stay calm and don't get worry easily

Step 2: Think before your action. Don't repeat her past experience on herself. Remind herself from time to time.

Step 3: Be confident to yourselves. Remember everyone is the winner. "Only One sperms out of millions fertilize an egg"

Step 4: Get a group of close friends to share your experience and get some activities that would occupied your time

Step 5: Increase scope of life. Meaning that she should involve in more social activities like dancing, outing and others.

Step 6: Put a rubberband on the wrist. If there is a negative thought, Tighten the rubber band and release it. Hence the effect of the pain would be able to reduce the possibility of negative thought.

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Answer 5

Wow I feel as if I am reading my own life, the only difference is it's my mom not my dad, and the cousin part was my male baby sitter. I spoke with a therapist and it really helped. Now the story I tell (if I do tell it) it seems as if I'm telling a fake story about someone else. It really helps to believe you are the good person and your life is going to be fine. Better yourself by going to school and getting away from everything, be happy as often as possible and forget about all this bad. I'm not saying run away, just confront it with a therapist (by talking about it) then move past it. I'm telling you it works.Don't put yourself in the picture as the innocent little girl who was abused all her life, put yourself in the picture as the girl who wants to be something in life and you had a little bit of a struggle to get where you want to be. If your dad won't give you money, get a loan or apply for grants and financial aid. That's what I did, I have a loan and I get financial aid to pay my bills. Hope this helps!

Answer 6

I know how you feel

my parents divorced when i was three

and he lived in the basement for 3 years

hes a alcoholic drug addict who is currently

in jail i didn't here from him for 2 years

and didn't see him for 4 hes back talking to us now

he hit my brother and me and my brother has rape

and molested me , my step father yells and has hit

me and my brother my mother had beat me and

we all try to keep my little sister safe and

i hate her some times because of how everyone

spoils her to make up for the yelling but i do it too

i am extremely depressed and have friends

that check my wrists everyday i try and

keep any medication away so i dont have

temptation but it doesnt always work

i try and keep positive and stay out of my

house as much a possibly

when your sad talk to friends it helps so much

start doing things for your self little things like

buying Ur self a chocolate bar or going out with

friends to a movie or to eat , help others with

there problems, and do little things to defy

the people that hurt you but the knifes in

the wrong drawer stay out late sneek out

take the change in there wallet or purrs

and put it in a jar for school nothing that

they'll notice just little things so you know

that its not all way going to be others hurting you.

if you know hes coming hes drunk or impaired

move the furniture so he dosn't know where it

is and falls on the ground but think about the

good things you have you can final leave if

you dont have the money im sure one

of your friends will help you with a place to stay

or go to a church or religious center they'll help

even if your not big on religion