I am a 30 year old mother of 3, I have battled depression and panic attacks most of my life. I react to SSRI's (HUGE PANIC ATTACKS) and trycyclics do nothing but leave me in a depressed state of fudginess. I suffered extreme postpartum depression and now my youngest is 3 i seem to be experiencing to worlds worst pms. Its taken me this long to realise all my 'insanity' is linked to my period.. i have a 3 week cycle, so i have about 6 'normal' days every 3 weeks. I am becoming more and more phobic- of travel, new people, pills (even antibiotics!). I am at the end of my tether and am living on 2-5mg of diazapam as needed- but that doesn't treat the manic depression. It feels like i'm going to be stuck like this forever. I can't work, i can't hold down a relationship. I have one antidepressant left to try , but i am so scared in case it destroys my delicate equilibrium (moclobemide). Some herbal remedies have even caused panic attacks.. HELP!! I am so over this hormonal monster that rules my life. And I would love another child one day but am scared of the mental repercussions..argh!! I was once an outgoing fun person.. but i live constantly controlled by my depression and panic attacks.. does anyone else have the same drug reactions, and what might help?
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