Depression and self harm - Will I relapse?

Question

I've been batteling depression for most of my life. I've also self-harmed for 4 years of my life.

I first attempted suicide when I was 6, a second time when I was 12, a third time when I was 14 and a fourth time when I was 16. Although, I never tried cutting to commit suicide, I have tried hanging, suffocation, and overdosing.

At the start of this year I pretty much stopped self-harming but often feel the need to pick up the razor again, and there's not one day that goes by where I don't think about self-harming and killing myself.

I used to talk to a few of my close friends when I was feeling this way but now school has finished we've all gone seprate ways and I've lost contact with most of them. Mostly because I had to move away and am now a 4hr drive from everything and everyone I know.

I feel alone and have no one to talk to.

I was just wondering what are the chances that I will relapse and start self harming again? and what should I do?

Has anyone else relapsed with self-harming?

FYI I don't take anti-depressants and have never seen a counsellor because when I told my dad I wasn't very happy and felt depressed, he didn't take me seriously and just said "sure we'll get you a counsellor" but it was left at that.

Answer 1

Everytime i've stopped self harming i've relapsed, the longest i've gone was about 4 months and the longest i've gone in awhile was 1 and a half months, i've currently stopped and it's been a little over a month, and pretty easy, i haven't had many urges, as with any addiction you probably will relapse, it's ok just keep trying.

Answer 2

Can you get yourself to a doctor yourself?

Relapsing into self-harm... well sometimes it happens.. sometimes it doesn't.

If you're 4 hours away from everything.. is that including your dad?

Try and see a doctor.. if not.. then try to make some friends where you live now.

Are you in college? Or join clubs, go to the gym, try to meet people.

Good Luck.