Depression is takin over me?

Question

Ok well here we go the reason im soo depressed is because when i was 1 my dad passed away, i dont have any friends, my bf that i love so much killed himself and im always gettin made fun of about how ugly i am my height and weight and i have no support from my family they hate the fact that im "emo" and wont accept me i just wanna kill myself but i dont have the guts to instead ive been makin myself throw up and have been smoking so im slowly but surely killing myself i wanna stop being such a bad person but im just so depressed with no one to talk to i have no one i lost all my friends when i stopped talkin and kept to myself and when i tried talking to them they just ignored me i dunno what to do and i dont wanna go to a mental hospital or a therapist

Answer 1

try talking aobut your issues in a real world support group in your area- not sure where that is- or in an online group.  I like dailystrength.org personally but there are others.  Do a google search and see what you find!  good luck and remember that you deserve to be happy!

www.dailystrength.org

Answer 2

I'm so sorry.

Depression is so crippling, but it is an illness that can be cured. And you don't even need to take drugs or see a therapist.

I was suicidal 3 years ago (3 failed attempts) but fortunately i was given a self help book to read. I was very dubious at first but figured that I had nothing left to loose so I started to read it. And I found that it described virtually everything I was going through and gave me tips on how to deal with these thoughts.

Basically it showed me that my thinking processes were faulty. Yes I should feel grief over loss, but it should not be the only thing I feel and the same goes for you.

And best of all I started to feel better as soon as I started to read it.

I know that how you are feeling right now means that you can't ever imagine feeling any better, only worse.  However you have also realised that you need help, and this means that somewhere deep inside you know your thoughts feelings are distorted by the overwhelming grief you are feeling about everything in your life.

Please trust me when I say you can feel better and you will if you follow the advice from the Book I recommend.

The book is Feeling Good. By David M. Burns

If you don't feel like reading a book but still want to talk about your feelings you can email me here and if I can help I will.

I hope this helps.

Answer 3

First you need to decide how you want to feel.  Then take appropriate steps in that direction.  If you want to feel better, you may need to start off with a little help and direction from a therapist.  You don't need to stick with that forever, just to get started.  You do have a lot to handle all on your own and it does sound difficult without friends and family for support.  You might find some support here on YA, but sometimes we need a body and a voice.  There again might be where a good therapist could help you through these trying times.  If you don't want to go in person to a therapist, you might be able to find a mental health number to call in the emergency numbers in your phone book.  You are in a tough spot right now, but if you keep trying, things will get better.