Diagnose me!! if u know anything about mental disorders tell me whats wrong with me. this one is a doozy?

Question

i think i have a disorder. generally im a happy care free type of person but recently ive been feeling like i should run away. i feel like i need some sort of rush i even thought about joining the army just for the excitment.im not suicidal @ all i dont want to die but i often cut,scratch, or pinch myself to make sure im real. i like being in physical fights. usually i try my hardest to avoid them but part of me really just wants to fight. i have forgotton almost my entire childhood and most of the past two years. im 17 btw. sometimes even if its 95 degrees outside i'll get cold but only for a few minutes. sometimes it feels like my whole body is cold except my blood and its like i can feel my veins radiate heat. i have vivid homicidal thoughts that i cant control. its like someone else is thinking them for me.but i could never even squish a bug in reality. im a vegitarian and have a strong maternal instinct towards children and animals.i have crazy dreams that dont make any sense. the strongest feeling i have is that im caged or chained down.sometimes i wish everyone would die so i could be free to do anything. but i hate being too alone. i love smoke and fire just watching it makes me feel peaceful. sometimes when i sleep i try and wake up and realize i cant move or even open my eyes sometimes i try to scream so someone will wake me up but i cant feel my mouth. eventually of course i do wake up.

i have a fear of being disliked.

i recently have had loss of appetite and had to force myself to eat because i hadn't eaten in a day and a half and i knew i should eat something. i thnk its a personality disorder..... pls and thnx...

Answer 1

haha... sry but WE cant diagnose you...go see a doctor i mean you would have by now if you were than worried.

EDIT: i wouldnt listen to confused. it doesnt matter how many years you study psychology for, you CANT diagnose someone online. i personally wouldnt trust her.. you have no idea who she is..or even if she is a she.

Answer 2

I think your just 17 and thinking too much. No one can diagnose you online anyway.

Answer 3

Based on what you've written there are several different things that could be going on but the one that stuck out the most of borderline personality disorder.  If you're concerned about I'd suggest finding a professional to talk to.

Check out these sites if you want to find out more:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_...

http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/bpd.h...

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publicati...

Answer 4

Yeah, I would say so. Don't share the homicidal feelings with anyone at school, they may lock you up.  Definitely call a doctor and be honest about everything.

In the meantime, read some articles about what you are feeling;

www.depressionandanxietypain.com

stay calm

Answer 5

This sounds like borderline personality disorder. I am not a doctor so I cannot really give you a definite diagnosis. It also sounds like you have an anger problem and stress. If you want some more in depth info on any of this just email me and ask me any question you have about all this.