I saw it last night and I was overwhelmed by a sense of his own personal tragedy - whatever it was. I watched him not playing a role but in a way which only he knew about, was LIVING the role.
There was something very curiously sad, tragic, consummated in his make up : the smeared paint, which to me seemed the last visible symbol of a defeated or wasted life.
His humour, though very witty was wrapped in a sorrow and sadness. As those who are at the end of their lives - and becomes a personal, private mockery they no longer care, should anyone know what it is about.
I once knew a girl in art school who dressed more bizarrely as she, another student and I shared for one year, space in a dorm. We knew she was suicidal because her father had told us, but even though we guarded her, her bizarreness of clothes and comments increased. If we'd ask as to how she was feeling her answers were poignant with something darkly hidden which Linda and I recognized but could do nothing about. Before the end of the second semester she took a great number of pills.That is how she was found. Not by Linda, nor I but by a friend of hers who would watch her when we could not.
That is what I saw in Heath Ledger when I watched his performance. I saw this tragic girl who was caught, had been caught in some deep personal tragedy for much of her life, but knew somehow she was at the verge of the end of it. But very alone, and privately.
Did anyone else notice this?
If yes, or no, would you comment upon what you perceived???
It has not left my head since last night, this perception based on something subterranean in Ledger's psyche, showing through his role.
Thank you.
I'd appreciate your detailed comments.
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