Do I have OCD? I really need some help!!?

Question

Ok well I always thought I was different but I guess I'm not.

I tend to have thoughts of jumping off really high places like for example when I go to the mall and i'm on the second floor, I have thoughts of jumping off because I am able too, or if I was on a bridge with no side walls I would want to jump off.

Another thing is if I had a knife in my hand like when im putting it away or something I would think of stabbing someone or someone who is right ther in the same room.

Also I have thought of "what if I had a gun in my hand, what would I do?" then I imagined my self and i realized I would have thoughts of shooting myself or someone.

And when I was driving and a car was right next to me, I had thoughts of just turning in his direction to just crash.

I kno these thoughts are never gonna happen and is not part of reality, so i'm not crazy.

Before and sometimes now (i kno this is nasty but its the truth and I cant help it) whenver I see anyone (Boy or girl) that I think is physically attractive, I would picture myself or someone else having some sort of sexual interaction with them for a moment. And It can be anyone, from a teacher, to classmates...I cannot help it but its the truth and I feel really guilty for thinking of these thoughts. I am also very afraid to do sinful things or evil things because I think god is always watching.

I'm a hip hop dancer and whenevr I do a dance people always say I'm good but I think it looks bad and I ALWAYS have to ask people if I did good even tho I know what there answer is.

Also I have noticed throughout my life I rarely get mad or happy. I'm always in the same mood, and I speak in a low boring voice because I am in a "whatever, who cares" mood.

Please help me, I did not come here for judgement but for help.....

thanks

Answer 1

Aside from a little insecurity I really don't think you have any problems.

I myself think of many different and unusual things like that, both violently and sexually. It's just being imaginitive I've always though, nothing that I would ever follow up on.

Just so happens to pop into my head. You may feel insecure because you over analyze others and this makes you feel that people are doing the same to you. Theres really not much that you can do with that. You just have to train yourself to be care free and turn that "whatever, who cares" mood into a "s***w em" kind of attitude. And I say that in the most positive way possible. You can't rely on people for happiness all the time.

You have to know in your heart and mind that there is (or shouldnt be) anything about you that someone could thing of that could ever affect you negatively. Don't let what people do make such an impact on your life.

It's not fair to yourself to give someone that much power over how you live your life.

Answer 2

that doesnt sound like OCD, it sounds like you are a psycho.

Answer 3

Think it may be time to see a counselor.  Although alot of people have these these thoughts and you are not crazy (and you don't need to be to see someone!!!) there may be some unresolved things that you are not aware of which a counselor could help with.  

Since you posted on here you are obviously worried about it so go have a chat to someone to help you understand why you think these things.  There's nothing like a good explanation and some education to change your pattern of thinking to a more productive and less destructive track.  

Answer 4

I know that is not OCD

Obsessive compulsive disorder is not what you had wrote above.

OCD is more of being obbsessed with organzing, cleaning, washing hands ect..

what you are experiencing I havent ever heard of before..

maybe u are curious but if u dont ever want to do any of the things then I think u are ok when u start to feel the urge to do them I would go see a doctor or something it sounds liike the begining of schizophrenia

seems like u have a stabilized mood   if u are never really mad nor happy.

try to talk with more enthusiasm if talking in mono tone bothers u .. dont have that whatever who cares attitude maybe that may help

hope things get better ughhh

Answer 5

It's anxiety/panic  You are not alone and your not weird, just get help for this...I did!

Answer 6

This actually IS a form of OCD. You have intrusive thought that interfere with you everyday actions and reactions. OCD is not just needing to wash your hands 20 times a day.

It is only considered harmful if you feel like you need to act these thoughts out, or they interfere wiht your day-to-day activities in a way that you can't perform tasks.

It usually comes hand in hand with depression, which by the sounds of the last part of your letter is what you are also suffering from.

You should speak to your doctor who can assist you on what, if any treatment you need.

Good luck.

Answer 7

These are fantasies of being free....always think of the consequences of your actions and only do what is right to yourself and others.

Answer 8

this is not ocd this sounds more like psychopathy. my only advice is prevention. sure you might not "think" you will harm others but there is a small chance you could be in an altered mental state and cause harm. so i advice you see a psychiatrist and talk about it with someone who is educated and understands the situation. prevent it please.

Answer 9

Im a bit like this too.

I always get an urge to just punch someone whos driving in the face or to just yank the steering wheel and see how things go.

I agree with kiki in OCD is not just about washing your hands, not from what ive read about it anyway.

I have a strong case for a self diagnosis of ADD wich usualy comes hand in hand  with OCD  and i think this is mostly likely a minor form of OCD.

Ive never followed through any of these actions and i know im just a bit crazy for thinking them but i dont really consider this to inerfear with my life much at all.

Answer 10

Are you sure it's OCD?

OCD stands for Obsessive Complusive Disorder...do you think you're so obessed with being clean that you shower five times a day, and wash your hands once every half an hour?

Go to the doctor's or a therapist...they might help you more than what we from Y!A can ever help you with your condition.

Answer 11

This is not OCD. OCD is when you have an obsession with order or a compulsion to do something a certain amount of times. I suggest you see a mental health care professional to help you with these thoughts. But just know that you're not crazy and that it's ok to be having these thoughts. You may just want to get a little help to get them cleared up and to understand why you're having them.