I've always had this problem my whole life, but now I'm starting to realize maybe I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?
Because for certaintain things, such as the neatness of my handwriting, brand of clothes, size of my clothes, I have to have it perfect! And when I don't it really bothers me a lot and I don't know why. For example, I can't have my notes messy and written in weired different handwritings, so I always have to spend extra time to rewrite the same thing over, just to make myself feel better.
Another thing is I ride horses, and when I buy a lot of equestrian riding clothes, I have to have the same brand of everything. I know it sounds extreme, but for riding boots, I have to buy "Ariet's" (brand) and I just cannot own different brand of boots. It drives me nuts when I have different brands of boots. I don't know why.
Speaking of sizes, when I go shopping for my regular clothes, I have to purchase the same size I buy at each store. For examble, I can't have american eagle's small hoodie and medium shirt. All the sizes have to mach. When I do have differnet size clothes, I feel like I have to throw it away even if I love it.
As you can see, even if I go extreme on these kinds of things, for other things I just can't care less. I'm not so perfectionist at school.
What is this obssession? I want to get rid of it really bad because it really bothers me to care for those unnecessary things in life.
Do they have any treatment for OCD?
Thank you very much!
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