I have gotten into gambling these past 3 years. Before this I never gambled eventhough I lived with 2 blocks of a casino. I got divorced which led to bankruptcy, and I had way to much time on my hands. I had a well paid job, and I thought..shoot, why not? I began with a $100 limit. I remember the first $100 I lost. No big deal. Next time, I got it back. No problem. I played only slots while I drank myself into oblivion. Then I started craps. Won $300. Then I lost $100. Then I one night I lost $500, then $300, then $300 more. Later I lost $300, $400, and then $800 playing blackjack. So, I guess I'm down about $1500 to $2000 over the course of 3 years. It seems that when I am bored and stressed out I go to the casino because there is nothing else to do around here. OH. There are the bars. I hate casinos. The desperate atmosphere. But I like it better than sitting home. I cut up my ATM cards which I have never done..and so I cannot just go and get cash when I want. I work hard for my money. I feel like the world's biggest sucker. A real loser. I don't want to go back to casinos. I would if I were winning, but I cannot remember the last time I won. Seems that when I am drinking I lose. When I am sober? No problem. Recommendations?
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