A friend who I'd considered my best friend from college and on the short-list for bridesmaid and even maid of honor just picked a date for her wedding. I checked the website recently and I wasn't on the list of 6 bridesmaids - 2 family, 2 grad school and 2 college friends. I've been crying non-stop since. I know it's her day and a hard choice and I should suck it up and be happy for her but I just can't snap out of it. I sent the "i imagine you're stressed, let me know if you need anything email" but still feel blindsided and can't believe this. It hurts so badly. I just want to know why. I met and got along with her fiancee, can afford the bells and whistles, have dropped what's on my full plate for her before and though the years have passed and cities changed, did all I could to stay in touch and let her know that I was a rock/someone she could call at any time and ask anything of. I feel like I was deluded about how dear our friendship was.
I don't want to stress her out but I just can't imagine attending her wedding with this lump in my throat. Any advice? Does this feeling go away? What should I do?
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