I'm aware that this probably isn't the ideal section for this question. But I really need some answers and can't talk to my own parents, I thought other parents might have some idea how to help.
I suffer major depression and this has been effecting me for over a year. I am 15 and I'm on fluoxetine and risperidone. I haven't been on them for long and people keep telling me to just wait for them to work, but I don't believe they'll make a difference and I'm fed up of waiting. Some days I like the way I look, most days I absolutely despise it. I can see something beautiful in everyone except for myself, really. I have such low self esteem that it stops me going out and I feel insecure around people who I consider pretty. I am jealous of my best friend because I think she is very pretty, I hate myself for the way I look. I can't bear to look in mirrors most of the time. I am also paranoid, I think that people are staring at me thinking I'm ugly and I can't trust anyone.
When I go out, I feel as if everyone is looking at me. I sometimes go dizzy and see things blurry for no reason. I feel like people are talking about me or watching me and it makes me very nervous. I don't like going out with anyone because I feel scared around even my best friends and I feel as if I'm doing things stupidly e.g. walking and talking. It's having a big affect on me, I am staying in because I fear going out with people.
Do you think I have anxiety or some kind of social problem?
What advice do you have for me?
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