Okay so, my issue :
I'm recently married, with no children. Some time ago i offered to help a woman who was a single mother by babysitting for her as long as needed with as little as 5 euro a day (just a typical low price so she doesn't feel i'm doing it out of pitty)
She worked in a nightbar so she was constantly tired and i told her to leave the kid with me for 2 days so she can sleep properly and get some rest. I had my husband with me and we were taking care of the child as it was our own, but i noticed i didn't let him hold the child too much or let him play with her as much as anyone else would.
It seemed unnatural to me, and i couldn't help myself.
I grew up with only my mom, my dad died when i was little and i don't recall any memories of him. So i assumed cause i grew up seeing my mom doing everything, i had that mentality.
But what happens when i have a child of my own? Is there anyway i can check if i'm going to be this worrying ? or not wanting anyone else help me with the care of the child?
Is this a sign that i will be a hysterical mother? when i think about giving birth i have this images of me not letting the nurses take the baby when it's given to me after birth.
How can i tell if i'm going to be a good mother?
Many people tell me i act very loving and mothering and protectively to younger people i know ( i'm 26 and i know a 15 year old girl and a 16 year old boy who have troubles at home and they usually come to me for their school stuff or advices, and i don't let anyone talk dirty around them or rude and they like that around me the enviroment is more 'clean' to what they are used to)
But i assume it will be different when the child is my own.
Is anyone experiencing this?
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