Do i have the right to kill myself because of this?

Question

im 21 and i feel worthless, i dont have friends, i dont even have anyone caring enough to call me or ask me how i am today, my mother has a heart problem and we have no money to be able to cure her, my brother thinks i am a loser who only asks money from him, i want to have a job but i will graduate next year and probably even feel more lonely and isolated and alone and i dont know how to combat the feeling everyday, i dont know how to go out there and socialize, people often tell me i am talented, i am beautiful, i am kind and yet i dont believe in those things, deep inside i believe i am evil and selfish and i would never feel contented, i will always judge others and i will never be loved because i cannot love.now if i kill myself tomorrow, am i not doing it for a good reason?

and please, i dont believe in God, better not tell me to read the bible.

Answer 1

I think u are unfare, sweety. Being a talented girl (whatever u can think, YOU ARE a Talented girl) and acting like a victim is so unfare toward people who believe in you. You MUST love yourself and it doesn't matter if others don't. Your brother probably has a lot of concerns...your mother needs your help too. Why don't just move on from your own world and try to understand that there is a world around u composed by people with your same flows and concerns.

Don't escape, face the life....u'll be well repaid, baby.

Answer 2

I believe your feelings are misleading you from the facts. You say you are 21 years. You are still very young and are just getting started. Give yourself a chance. And if you want to be loved, quit judging and start loving, especially with yourself. Your sensitivity is a great gift. Train it well and will benefit you and many other you will meet in this life.

Bless you always.

Answer 3

This might sound stupid, but for the time being, find solace and escape though books or tv or anything else that can keep you distracted and alive. This phase of your life will pass and things will get better. If you need anyone to sympithise or just to talk to yu can email me. [e-mail]. Good luck, and please don't kill youself, it is very selfish and even if yu feel no one cares it will hurt quite a few people who know yu and it is the most selfish thing yu can do!

Answer 4

i hate 2 mention this, but, y dnt u believe in God? u came from Him..

i am not asking u 2 read the Bible...but i am just asking u to just believe in Him...sooner or later, u'll meet him in heaven..

u are in a bad situation now.....see??! bcoz u dnt believe in God...u need 2 have a big faith on Him...he will never leave u...especially, in cases like this..u had a lot of problems, i know..but this doesn't mean u don't hve 2 believe in him anymore....u had a lot of problems bcoz this is the way God tests u...and if u wud just turn back and leave ur problems....just imagine how hard it would be 4 ur family that will be left (fixin' ur problems..)

committing a suicide will never help u...it will be an eternal flame 4 u...u'll gonna regret it, i am very sure of that..

face it!!! believe in God....sooner or later, u'll realize that life is very important..and that life is a meaningful gift from GOD!!!

Answer 5

Most of the people have these feeling at lease once in their life.

It absolutely normal human behavior.

I felt the same for more than 10 years, but slowly realized, all these things are part of life.

Answer 6

you do as you will...

Answer 7

You can if you want but listen, Your brother is probably an extremely antagonizing person trying to make you sad because he thinks it's funny. It wouldn't hurt earn your money though. Nobody wants to lose their mother. People feel abandoned after parents die, but it's called FATE. sometimes death of a loved one can change a persons outlook and make them feel optimistic. Being on the phone and telling people how you feel gets old. Friends aren't that great because you have to do what they want to and it gets old to, but, you should find someone like yourself to talk to. Just open your mouth and speak. You can talk to me, my  e-mail is   [e-mail]    as is, no joke. You can love, try spending time with an animal. You probably love being mad. Your not selfish or evil if you care about your mother. Even if you want to kill people youre not evil, just human. I judge others because that is how i learn to socialize and decide weather or not I could love someone, simply by studying what they do and how they present themself. There is no good reason to kill yourself because then you can't be better than the people you judge.

Answer 8

Never

Answer 9

DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!! you are worth something!!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 10

No, And it isn't a wise thing to do. Sibling usually say that regardless of if they mean it. If you live it will give you time to work out that whole God thing. I hope you can be messing things up for many years like the rest of us. Things don't always stay bad.

Answer 11

First of all lets answer the 1st. question do i have the right to kill myself? Yes, you CAN, you are FREE to choice what is good or bad, you have AUTONOMY over yourself therefore you can kill yourself.

         But why kill yourself if you can do many things? Your existence is a fact that you have something to do in this world. So live, suffer and strive more to help your mom and one day when you have your own family think about your past that you alone can answer.  

Answer 12

I don't think this is a good reason.  I have felt the same way most of my life.  I am in my 40's now.  I do know that I haven't always felt bad to the degree which you state, but I have been there.   I'm sorry your mother is sick.  She does need you.  Can you imagine if you took your life, her heart would surely give then.  Sometimes we just have to hang in there for others.  I don't know how to tell you to grasp something worthwhile out of life, but it sure helps.  An animal, a hobby, interest, something which can help you to get up every morning.  Every morning, you just have to get up.  Get up and breathe.  Just get up and breathe.  Where the rest of your day takes you is not within your control.  But you do need to stay in the game.  I know from experience that as I got older, things got better.  As stated, I still fight with my depression, but it is better.  I like how you stated tomorrow.  If your feeling like suicide is the better answer, just tell yourself, you'll do it tomorrow, and then the next day, tell yourself the same thing, on and on . . . until eventually the feeling changes.  Lastly, there is always professional help for depression.  Pharmacologically there are good medications which may help you regain some enjoyment in life.  Your not alone!!!!

Answer 13

I don't mean to be rude, but a couple of months ago I was feeling a bit sad! guess what????  I started using my time, I go to college, I volunteer, I work, I help others and If I don't have anyone to go out with I go to the movies by myself!! .... Look for something to do at home or a sport but please stop wasting your time thinking of  something so LAME!!!

Answer 14

The human beings fear death. You are afraid of it aswell. But you have only one chance in your life. Only one. You are not going to live once again.Think about what youre doing. Whathever thing you are going through now, unless you have killed someone, its fixable.

You can't control your destiny. Why waste your life thinking about yourself this way? Did you ever realize, those cool girls, how unhappy they are? They have just a coverface, nothing else.

Everyone happen to have a dark time, in their life. But you can recover.

Look for a doctor, a psycologist who can help you. Start with little steps, everyday, something who can boost your self-confidence.

In thinking about killing yourself, you are just showing to be egoist,trying to escape from all of your problems.

You can't. Problems do not go away. You have to fix them. Thats the painful truth.

I trust you.

Answer 15

Congratulations! you've worked out a lot of stuff for yourself... most never get this far. Don't worry - I won't be making any bible references!

you're right - it won't help.

You absolutely could kill yourself tomorrow... if you choose to. That won't mean it's a good solution - for you or anyone else.

The jury is still out - what happens after death?

It may be nothing - just an ending. If it is, you gain nothing, and it certainly won't help your Mum's heart condition to loose her child. Her life won't be better living with the knowledge she failed you. You also miss the opportunity to 'come out fighting' and turn this around... I can't describe how satisfying that could be, you'd have to experience it to 'get it'.

Meanwhile, death may not actually be the end. Then you'd have an eternity to face feeling exactly as you do. Sound good?

Or, there may be re-incarnation... except that if re-incarnation does happen, it's so you can learn from the experience. That means you would experience the same set of circumstances all over again, bringing you right back to where you are now - and this can happen in life after life, after life... untill you come up with a better solution.

So, it's just an idea... but how about exploring for a better solution in this life? and getting it over with, for good. After all, you can put killing yourself on the back burner and use it later if you wish.

Meanwhile - there is more than one way to 'end it all'. Find the problems, separate them, deal with the blighter's one by one, and make changes that end the problems. Eventually, you look back to what will then be the past, and see all the things that you have ended in your life... and all the things you have replaced them with.

It's a long journey... one thing I would suggest. Don't try to do this on your own. Find someone who is appropriately trained to help you by listening, and helping you find your way out.

You may also need to find your own kind. If you're not much for socalizing, it may be because the 'society' you're surrounded by at present, does'nt actually suit you. Who your 'own kind' are is something you need to explore. What you think is 'evil and selfish' may actually be something else entirely... but are you stuck in a society where you are supposed to be survile and submissive?

Another suggestion... I know the MSEC has people who have completed their training and need to collate their first few clients in order to complete the qualification. In return for this, they don't charge. This may be useful to you if money is a problem.

Whatever you decide to do is up to you. Consider carefully - you can't really know what the outcome may be if you do try to kill yourself, and it will be too late to back out.

You can e-mail me if you wish.

Answer 16

You need to get out more.  Get a job so you will at least be able to talk to people.

Answer 17

You are the production of God and production of God could never be useless.  God sent you on this earth with a mission.  Please have an introspection and you must try to know what goals had been fixsed by God and you should immediately start journey on those paths and you shall be having a longing for lifr.

Answer 18

No Baby You cannot do it...It's not the one thing to do.

Life is the unequalled real gift we have.

You must be able to go on and on.

Love

Giada

Answer 19

Come on. You only get one shot in life, so don't throw it all away because you're at a low point at your very young age of 21. Seek help. Killing yourself would just be a complete and utter waste. Many, many people go through this kind of thing and worse, and many manage to pull through one way or another. So there's a good chance the same will happen to you if you make the effort.

Answer 20

I think that you need to find a reason to believe in yourself to keep going, then the rest will sort itself out.   Obviously, there isn't going to be anyone but you that can make the decision to keep it going or end your life, that's the way it is but from this perspective it would seem that your reasons to end life are not worth endin your life.  You sound depressed with everything, the helplessness of your situation but that was yesterday, things can change for you in a matter of a few days, I encourage you to keep it going.  

  My younger brother ended his life 18 years ago, he was a physician who had been in a car accident that left him paralyzed from the neck down.  His physical condition was getting worse and his pain was more then he could bear on a daily basis.   Yes, in death he was no longer in pain but we as a family were devastated..   Maybe seek some professional help?   Hey, what do you have to loose?   You can always end your life another day...   Hang on..  And to answer your question, you do have the right to choose but I hope you will give it some more time before making that choice.

Answer 21

Speaking as someone who has it about 100 times worse than you, no, don't kill yourself .

If people keep telling you that u are beautiful, kind, talented then do yourself a favor and believe em if only to see how much it will change how u feel about yaself .

Answer 22

You always have the right and option to kill yourself if you so wish, as does anyone. But that doesn't mean that you should. Sometimes you have to decide to stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop viewing yourself as a victim who can't help herself.

No its not easy... life never is. Did you think it would be or should be? I totally empathise with your situation. Have you talked to your Dr, are you on antidepressant medication? It seems like you have clinical depression and that its treatable.

There is never a good reason to kill yourself and it will always be a desperate act and a "sod you" to the world. Essentially you have low self esteem and that isn't really a valid reason to give up. You are still very young with a lot of life, opportunity's and possibility's ahead of you.

You have the power to steer the course of your own life. You are at a cross roads and the direction you choose to go in is entirely up to you. But what makes you think if you kill yourself that it will be the end of your misery, despair or suffering? Who says death is the end? What makes you think it would be better?

What you need to a therapist and kindly ear. Someone to help challenge your negative thinking. Someone to help you set yourself small achievable goals.

You need to do things to build up your confidence and sense of worth. You need to find out what you like, what makes you tick. what direction you want your life to go in. You have to stick with it and try everything.

You would be a coward to bail out now, before you'd tried everything. Its not like you are 40 or 50 and have had years of repeated failures, its not like you have been out there and tried everything yet. What would you say to someone else your age in your situation? Would you honestly think they were justified to give up and kill themselves having never tried?