To preface, basically I've been feeling kinda down for the last 4 months because I've had to work really hard and have had very little free time, if at all. I have been waiting for the hardest parts to be done with and assumed that things would look up after the 4 months. It's been a bit of time since then and things haven't started looking up. This has been very frustrating & hard for me to deal with b/c I feel like I'm starting to lose up or figure out how to just continue going thru the motions of life.
I finally figured out today that I think what's frustrating me the most is that I have a habit of assuming that things work out in a somewhat karmic manner. That if I work hard, I'll get good feedback. If I am nice to people, they'll be nice to me. Basically a do unto others as I would have them undo to me kind of mentality. And a basic mentality that people get what they deserve.
I know it logically that life isn't fair so people don't always get what they deserve. But I have a hard time putting this into action in my own life. My logic is so centered around justice that I end up getting frustrated w/ life when it seems people are getting things they don't necessarily deserve & I'm not getting what I want when I feel like I deserve it. I try to have a positive attitute 9/10 times about it, but lately I have been feeling kinda down because things don't seem to be getting better for me even though I've worked so hard for 4 months & really truly believed that they would.
What do I do and how do I stop this mentality of you get what you deserve?
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