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Hello Everyone:

I have a Question. All of you have to send me your opinion on this one ok. Ok, so I had a dream last night about the lady who plays the exorcist's mother. Only in my dream she was my mother and walking towards me. She was encouraging me to be evil. I felt this evil feeling in my dream - like it wanted my soul. In my dream my heart was saying "no" but this evil force was coming towards me fast & hard.

Sometimes I feel a "pull" from both sides of evil or good. I see this a lot in my dreams.

Last night was the weirdest. In my dream I was walking on this dirt road all alone - dark grey skies and the wind was blowing hard. The scene had a very ominous tone to it. As I was walking on this dirt road this truck was coming towards me. I believe the truck represented something evil. I just felt like I was evil and scared at the same time in that moment. The next segment of my dream involved that lady who played the exorcist's mother. she was walking towards me and looked at me like I was evil. She was trying to convey I had to be her evil child.

What a weird dream. I felt like this evil thing wanted my soul. I felt like it was trying to tell me I am truly evil no matter how many times I attend church or convince myself I am Christian. What do you honestly think?

My History:

My teacher told me when I was young I had no Conscience.

Then my friend (a doctor) said if someone shaved my head they would find 3 digits on it. However, he said I was not completely evil. I'm only half or 75% evil or something like that. He said I was only the neighbour of the beast - so the 3 digits on my head would be 668. FYI - my friend is a total geniusus and is usually right about things. I remember he always use to say one thing to me everyday when I got home from school (University): "So Josie, how was school? Did you get into any fights today?

I also remember when I was a kid my Auntie's friend called me a devil when she was mad at me.

Also, just recently I had to take a bus as I locked my keys in my car. I guess I upset this lady at the bus stop.I provoked her cause I thought she had a staring problem. She was fuming mad at me. I laughed. She said something that made me think though. She said: "I have been to this country from England for 40 years now and I have never ever met anyone like you before!".

Also, I sometimes like to say and do funny things so I can giggle later. Most times I control those compulsions. Today I laughed to myself cause I wanted to throw my drink at a truck driving by - in that moment I felt compelled to do it and laugh. But I didn't do it. I just laughed to myself. (This was on campus today)

Am I evil? If no, am I on my way? Let me know ok people.

Or what is going on here?

Answer 1

You are not evil.  It does sound like you have either tried the patience of many people or have been truly unlucky and have had many evil people try to brainwash you.  With all that in your back ground its no wonder you feel the way you do.  You do need to seek help now because you have been convinced.  Seek help from a professional that will not buy into the 'Josie is evil' ploy and truly help you with your issues.

Answer 2

well seems to me you are having a dramatic mental experience.

This Results in things you have seen or something that happened to you when you were younger. what i would do is let it happened it will eventually fade away  

Answer 3

Holy dream field girl. Well I'd say why should you allow dreams from your sleep define who you are in real life.  They are just dreams and that is all.  Be the lovely, charming. witty, angelic girl you always are in real life!