Do you think I am a pessimist?

Question

I can't help it, I really don't know what's wrong with me. The pessimist is seldom an agitating individual. His creed breeds indifference to others, and he does not trouble himself to thrust his views upon the unconvinced. I feel bad when I feel good for fear I'll feel worse when I feel better. It's easy to cry when I realize that everyone I love will reject you or die. I see love and I tell her to go find someone better and she does she is happier, there is reason and logic there at work. I rank at the top of my class, however I point out how there are more intellects in the world who deserve the attention, and the attention goes away. I was right in all this, but I killed and well buried the fun of it all. I feel sorrow, depression, and mis-hope for such suggestions, but inside---deep inside me I feel comfort, a mysterious bliss, acceptance, and dark happiness. Knowing I could not go a day as an optimist missing such feeling.....is this pessimism?

Answer 1

this is indeed pessimism to and of the highest degree.  u're still young and hence should change - pl try and try u must for it will bog you down later in life.  participate in joyful things and be +ve.  

u seem to relish it.  u will regret it if you dont.