He was my first. I was young, silly and naive and slept with him on the first night thinking he was interested in me. He wasn't. He already had a gf(or maybe wife - not sure if he was married then or got married afterwards) and child - I didn't know about this till later. He wanted s*x - he called me again twice and I thought he might be interested in me. I found out about her on the third time I saw him and ended it straight away. So I meant nothing to him - just a bit on the side. He used me and moved on. I saw them once together and he looked 'into' her. I moved on too - this was 7 yrs ago - now I am married to a great guy and we have 2 kids under 2. But life is hard with 2 kids and I don't work so I have very little to think about. Someone mentioned to me that the house this guy from the past lived in (so I assume he owned) sold for over $4mil. He earned heaps so I guess he could have owned it.
So now I have this image of them living happily ever after. Married with kids, LOTS of money - money to buy anything they ever wanted.......anything at all. I assume they live in the same small town he came from ---so close to friends/family. So he probably doesn't cheat as he. Guys can separate love/s*x so he probably loved/s her and has got it (the urge to cheat) all out of his system that time with me. Being close to friends/family also probably means that he doesn't get the opportunity to get away with it as he was so careful when he saw me those couple of times. I don't know any of this - except for the selling the house that they lived in - but it kind of fits into place. I never let him bother me before but now that he seems to be so well off in life with everything I just feel so down about mine. I love my hubby and children but I have this vision of them having it so much better than us. I know I sound like I have sour grapes - but he was so callous to deceive me and use me for s*x - he never lied but deliberately let me think he was single. And obviously cheated on the wife/gf.
Do you think his life could be this good now? I know I should concentrate on my own - and I am - but it would make me feel better to know that things are probably not as great as I have the impression of for him. I think it is possible that I have just built this up to be something bigger than it is - possibly he is just like any other guy - just a bit more money?
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