Do you think i can post this anomymously to his orkut account(social networking site)?

Question

do you think i can forget it soon?...it took me a long time to understand the fact that you have killed a part of my soul by violating my body...im sure you must be remembering and deriving perverted pleasures thinking of your encounter with me..but do you also know that my mind has become irreparably ill because of the very acts?...do you remember what amount of child like innocence i had enjoyed prior to talking to you...you destroyed my innocence...but i give it to you that i have not been perfect in that aspect , otherwise i would not have tried to please you with my body..do you remember my resistance to your touches, do you remember my reluctance to participate in your perversion?...do you remember my shriek of horror when i saw you first, unclothed...do you remember how you did it all in an 'instant' manner, how you treated a 15 year old tender girl like your s*x slave..you have made me stained, tainted...you killed a part of my core...not a day passes by without the horrifying scenes of what had been done to my body when i was a child.i pray to god, daily for forgiveness, i pray to god to heal me, to make me forget the scars you have caused on me..do you know, after you, i promised myself that i will NEVER fall in love again, and i have kept i till a year or so back..yes, 7 long years...now im hopelessly in love with someone, deeply, spiritually..and i am scared...im ashamed of sharing my body, soul and mind in the sacred act of love anymore..because they are all tainted...tainted by you...i feel worthless and undeserving of a tender look, a tender touch, a tender kind of love

Answer 1

You can post it, but it may not do a lot of good in enlightening him.

More to the point is the need to cure yourself of this experience.

Firstly, did you know that after seven years every cell in your body has been replaced at least once?  This means that there is no cell left in your body that has been touched by him.  Everything is new.

Next, love is too important and too precious to be lost just because of a bad experience.  True - you gave him the most precious thing you had, which you cannot now give to the one you love now.  That is very sad, and regrettable.  But it is done now.  Why should you then withold what you can offer still, and that is love?

My first girlfriend was French - from a country where the legal age of consent is 15 (although she was 18 when we gave our virginity to each other).  There they are taught to approach lovemaking not with a sordid perversion, but with the innocent delight of a child, and they carry on regarding this as important to life as eating or drinking or sleeping.  I loved her very much, and still do, even though she has long gone back to her country. I learned too so much about the healthy French approach to sexuality in contrast to the rather sordid feelings about it brought up in my country.

You are not tainted by having discovered s*x at 15; you are experienced, and know the strong feelings this can bring, and also the sense of anticlimax and disappointment which happens when you have s*x without love.

My first girlfriend was raped once when she was 19 and I was 20.  I gave up work as soon as I heard, so that I could be with her, and make her feel a complete and loved woman again.  The first thing I did was to wash her out both outside and inside, so that every trace of her rapist was cleaned out. A baptism if you like, but a way of washing clean all the bad thoughts and the hatred deep inside her.  Then I made love with her, as strongly and as thoroughly as I could, bringing her as much happiness with my hands and my caresses and my words and my body and my spirit as I could. So that she could associate once more the act of lovemaking with love and respect and joy and sleep in my arms tired but ecstatic as lovemaking should leave you.

Once cleansed of the rapist's traces, she was worth it and deserving of it.  In the same way that you do not eat your food off a dirty plate, but if you wash and clean and dry the dirty plate until it shines, then yes the old plate is better than a new one.  The old plate is not afraid it will be used once and discarded, but instead after every meal, it looks forward to a lifetime of companionship and good food.

So, may I suggest that you undergo a ritual of self-cleansing and explain to your new love what you are doing and why.  Then you will be truly ready and worthy to receive him, and he will be so lucky and so happy to have found someone who loves him so much.

Answer 2

Hi stranger ,

I can understand your situation but answer yourself one question

whats the use of posting such a message in his orkut.

understand more and more poeple will come to know abt this incident

Thank God , you are out of it now. you have seen some serious things from close corner.

You are more of a matured girl now, chuck all this ..

Think of how to make money and good friends in most ethical way.

Peace will follow.

Cheers.

Answer 3

yes u can post it..

Answer 4

Of course it is.

Make a fake account with a s**y girls pic.

Add him (in case he has kept his privacy settings such as no body other than his friends can scrap him).

After he ads you just post it.

Watch the word count, if it's too long post it in two parts.

Answer 5

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