Okay i posted a question about my legs ages and them clicking and grinding [go see it to catch up], so i went to the doctors and they couldn't find out what was wrong with me :(
So they've sent me to hospital which im due to go on the 21st of this month, so anyway i was talking about it with my friends the other day and a girl over heard.
She's a really nice, bright, down to earth girl who is very kind, :)
She mentioned that her mother works in the department where im going and then she said something thats bothered me...
She said something about it being for fractures,specialise in legs [which i knew] then she said it ws for bone cancer aswell. '_'
This is where it bothered me.
Ever since ive been thinking about it non stop and having nightmares too. As ive waited over a month for my appointment my condition has gotten worse :(
I shake on a night really bad [i dont tell my mother]
I have dizzy spells
Feel sick
Hair falls out [only aa little bit, when brushing or w/e]
Weak etc
And now that this girl has said the bone cancer unit, i cant help but wonder if i have it or something along the lines of it. I don't think im paranoid or anything but now it is on my mind all the time and i cant focas. Everytime i see the support adverts on tv i panick thinking it might be happening to me.
Im terrified tbh, i keep having nightmares that im dying etc. Its awful. Im only 14 and i dont know much about this stuff and i need help really bad PLEASE :'( [cryinhg as writing this btw]
The unit im suppose to be going to havent told me what there are doing :s, ive heard its Xrays,bloods and other tests.
I just want to know if i COULD possibley have cancer or something else like that or ANYTHING eally.
I know non of you are doctors but this is my only hope to turn to unitll my hospital date.
Thanks in advace x*x
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