Do you think i should anonymously mail him this letter?

Question

do you think i can forget it soon?...it took me a long time to understand the fact that you have killed a part of my soul by violating my body...im sure you must be remembering and deriving perverted pleasures thinking of your encounter with me..but do you also know that my mind has become irreparably ill because of the very acts?...do you remember what amount of child like innocence i had enjoyed prior to talking to you...you destroyed my innocence...but i give it to you that i have not been perfect in that aspect , otherwise i would not have tried to please you with my body..do you remember my resistance to your touches, do you remember my reluctance to participate in your perversion?...do you remember my shriek of horror when i saw you first, unclothed...do you remember how you did it all in an 'instant' manner, how you treated a 15 year old tender girl like your s*x slave..you have made me stained, tainted...you killed a part of my core...not a day passes by without the horrifying scenes of what had been done to my body when i was a child.i pray to god, daily for forgiveness, i pray to god to heal me, to make me forget the scars you have caused on me..do you know, after you, i promised myself that i will NEVER fall in love again, and i have kept i till a year or so back..yes, 7 long years...now im hopelessly in love with someone, deeply, spiritually..and i am scared...im ashamed of sharing my body, soul and mind in the sacred act of love anymore..because they are all tainted...tainted by you...i feel worthless and undeserving of a tender look, a tender touch, a tender kind of love

Answer 1

Dear one, if you send this letter to the perpetrator, you will only increase the pleasure that he first experienced when he harmed you.  In his perverted mind, you will awaken his memories of the moment, allowing him to enjoy it all over again.  More than that, it might also give him the desire to do it to you again and he might seek you out to fulfill a new lust for you because it won't be too hard for him to figure out who would have sent the letter.  Therefore, I suggest that you don't send it.

I know that you are still hurting and I wish I could be there to help your pain.  Take comfort in this thought -- Jesus loves you and He can help you heal.  In Philippians 4:6-7 it says, "Have no anxiety about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God.  And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus our Lord".  If you trust in Him, it will get better and through time, your pain will disappear.

Also, you don't have to share your terrible experience with your loved one.  Some things are best buried and never resurrected.  If it ever does come up, let it be your own circumstance that dictates how to go about it.  At that time, if your loved one truly loves you, then it shouldn't matter what has happened to you years in the past.

By all means you are not the one to blame for what has happened.  You need to hold your head high and not be beating yourself up about it.  To further your healing, since you write that it happened when you were 15, I suggest that you pursue prosecution of the perpetrator and tell law enforcement what has happened.  If you have already done that, then Bravo for you.  If not, you might need to do it soon because there is a statute of limitations on prosecution of rape and you could be running out of time to file charges.  Of course then it will become public knowledge, so you should be prepared for that event.

In the meantime, I wish blessings on you and hope that everything turns out well for you.

Answer 2

gee...he won't ever know who sent it!

Answer 3

Honestly girl. I dont understand it. You make it seem as if he forced himself on you but then you go on and say you gave your body to him. I think you need to talk to someone, for real. Call a friend or family, and discuss this. I want to be frank with you doll. Get over him and move on. You will love agian, you will have s*x again all of it .. you did it once and you will do it again, just not with him. Move on.

Answer 4

No

there's nothing anonymus about it,

He'll know it was you,

you'll end up looking like a fool.

Answer 5

yea you should make him feel bad!