Do you think this is PRIDE?? please read this and help me as well?

Question

hi to you. if yer willing to answer and read this thankyou VERY much. i know its boring to read someone else's story. but i hope you still read. thankyou:)

when i was in my first yr college i and my bestfriend became classmates because we wanted to be in the same class.. however things didn't turned out right.. i had a situation when i was in my 4th yr where i always act dumb and kinda stupid to make my friends laugh but am not like that. not at all. that's why i hate myself back when i was in 4th yr... anyway, this bestfriend of mine know me as someone who has one word. i mean when i say i don't like that. i mean it. i told her before i hate ppl who pretend to be someone just to get along with others. however i ruined my reputation/pride when i was in 4th yr bcoz i ate what i said. my bestfriend doesnt know what happened to me in 4th yr. i hve changed. because of what happened to me in 4th yr i became really sensitive with jokes when it comes to making fun of me. ESPECIALLY my bestfriend who always look up to me. i can't accept that she's better than me now. i gave stupid reasons because i dont want to lose to her. i know its immature but i dunno..

our relationship is ruined because i was like that. my pride is ruined because of that. now i dunno if im depressed because of that too. you think its my pride?

Answer 1

its embarrassment, and they aint very good friends by the sound of it. what happens in the past makes you who you are today, and the past is irrelevant. i used to be not soo cool, but if anyone judges me on it now and the person i am today i just laugh at them, they need to grow up, you already did a long time ago.

your friend sounds like maybe shes confused that you lied. Never apologize for being who you are, and never lie.