So i was thinking, about relationships. Not like sexual boy-girl (traditionally :/) relationships. I mean i suppose they would be included, but not them specifically. More relationships in the broader sense of the word.
I personally have found that i am terrible at relationships; initiating-starting them, keeping them intact, and most of all understanding them. I have a very good boyfrind of mine. Not boyfriend, more friend who is a boy. Happens to be in love withmy sister but that is another story. What troubles me is that i for the life of me can’t seem to dissect what our relationship is built on. We love eachother but i only just started talking to him again, and quite honestly im not convinced that we really know eachother that well. I have the feeling that our whole existance as a couple (of friends) is entirely superficial. Which is weird because he really is one of my very best boy friends.
Initating- starting a relationship. I am a shy person, as i have reitterated again and again in my past blogs. But i am c**p *** at starting relationships- conversations even!- let alone relationships. And i seem to find myself really really hating the world and hating people who are obviously happier than i am, if only for at small amount of time. I supposed these two things seem to be unrelated, but they’re really not. I believe that you have to have the will to initiate before you actually do so. Otherwise the world is for c**p. I am being called away i will return soon...
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