I am only a girl of fourteen years of age. I'm completely normal on the outside, but on the inside, I think I'm a little over emotional.
I have some very intense mood swings that shift from really happy and excited to very lonely and sad. My mood gets effected easily from the music I listen to, the movies I watch, or just how people act/what they say around me. When someone else is hurting around me, I hurt too. I've always felt like I have this large portion inside of me that's missing. And I've never had the feeling in my life that the blank space was being filled. There's something that I haven't found yet, but I'm not sure what.
I've also got an issue with my temper, I think. When something sets me off, after talking rationally for a few minutes and if no one understands or listens, I begin to yell/scream. I scream so much, just to get my point across. And when I'm angry, it's like I have no control over what comes out of my mouth. Certainly I can keep myself from like, eh, hitting someone. Because I won't allow myself to do that. But once I get going, it takes a while for me to calm down. Though the most awful thoughts run through my head without my control, and I just want to throw something super super hard at the closest wall.
Do you think I've already developed some sort of disorder? Or is this just what most teenagers experience because of hormones, and such?
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