I took ecstasy for the first time when I was fifteen. I'd been smoking weed for a couple years and had tried coke right after my fifteenth birthday, so I was used to being ****** up by then. I'd had a pretty terrible sophomore year so far, being in a school full of preppy a******s that I hated and the majority of my friends from out of school. I was pretty pissed off about the whole situation, so for some reason I began a completely physical relationship with a drug dealer who had graduated high school the year I started it. He had been sharing his weed with me for free for about a year at this point, and I soon discovered I had free access to everything else he had as well, including coke and E. The first time I tried E was after I'd snuck out of my house on a weekend night, and it was instantly my new favorite drug. It killed every negative feeling I'd ever had, and included almost no immediate side effects besides teeth grinding. I was able to have s*x with someone who didn't care about me without feeling disgusted with myself (until the next day), and I started sneaking out on school nights to go to my dealer's house and get it. Sometimes, if it was a stronger pill, the high would carry me through the school day and keep me completely apathetic to everything. I had one day where I was so ****** up at school after drinking and taking a couple things at once that I couldn't sit in class and spent the entire day sleeping in the bathroom. Miraculously I managed to keep all my grades above C's, and I finished my sophomore year with straight A's and B's, classmates that thought I was completely crazy, and some very worried administrators.
Over the summer, I switched back to weed, dropped the loser I was s******g and now I only take E when I go to concerts or dancing. I'm not saying E is bad, it makes it easy to become friends with basically anyone and I don't worry about how I look or whether someone likes me when I'm on it, and it's better than alcohol at lowering inhibition. I just don't recommend taking it habitually like I did, so the best point at your life to be rolling is when you're already happy.
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