Im 21, and for the past 6 mos or so I have been feeling down, I just cry over little things, and I worry constantly over things that havent happened, and maybe never will. Like i worry about whats going to happen when my husband gets old, if hes going to die without me, and im going to be stuck here by myself and how Im going to deal with everything that will need to be taken care of. I dont want to leave the house by myself, I dont want to drive by myself, ( i can do it if someone is in the car with me but i would prefer not to) I cant watch love movies or movies about parent-child relationships, or movies about death without an exteme feeling of sadness coming over me. I had...and still do have a good life, no major problems, and I know this, but when i see these movies its like I take on their problems and feel as if there mine, and somehow, i find a way to relate it to my life and stay sad about it until some other problem comes along. Its begining to effect my relationship and my friendships and when someone says good morning, i catch myself thinking "is it really?" My sleep is interrupted by nightmares of things that could possibly pose a problem in my life and then i spend the rest of the night and next day thinking about how i can stop it from happening. I have been thinking lately about how I can hardly cope with life right now, that if any problems actually did arise I would just kill myself. I havent thought about actually doing it, but just about how it would be an option. This is all wrong, i just dont know what it is or how to fix it. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow afternoon and i dont know what he's going to say or what but i feel like im just going to burst out into tears when he walks in the door. I guess im looking for the "big answer"? or maybe just some moral support? Does anyone have this problem? I need help, I just dont know what for. I think the worse part of it all is that I have a normal life, and I always have!
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