Not just celebrities, but everyday people like acquaintences, friends, apparent enemies(e.g., the guy who stole from me), and even people I see on the bus. It kinda makes me feel a little left out, honestly. I mean, I miscarried a few years ago and a lot of people were literally THRILLED to have someone like me that they didn't deem "good enough" to become a parent then miscarry...since then, I've been depressed about it. I want to have a little "me" and I also want to prove to everyone that indeed I AM very capable of being a mom. I realize that dwelling on stuff like this is unhealthy, so trust me I try to focus on things that make me happy, but then it seems that whenever something very wrong happens -- such as the looming risk that I might lose my job in the next few months due to company's bankruptcy, etc -- I start turning back to dwelling on the "baby" situation.
I've also started resenting ex-friends who've wronged me, now having babies. For example, this guy Paul who stole money from me last year. Or Shania, the girl who started hating me for no reason at all and would trash talk me to our mutual friends whenever we randomly bumped into each other in public(then again, Shania has a habit of doing that to other people too). Or an ex that cheated on me and then had his new girl call me up to yell and scream at me.
Anyone else feel this way?
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