Ok, So i have bipolar disorder type 1 and I am suffering a very dysphoric manic episode right now. I am filled with rage, anger and guilt. I am very energetic and jumpy. I start going crazy when I am normal and have to sit around or wait around for something, thats because of my anxiety disorder. When I am dysphoric, i can't wait for anything, i start getting irritated and starting panicking.
Now I have an MRI at 12 tomorrow and then an EEG at 5. I heard that MRI and EEG are about 45 minutes to 90+ minutes long.
I am afraid I am going to go crazy sitting there waiting for the entire thing to finish. Especially the MRI which I heard you have to go in those machines. I remember I went kinda crazy for a CAT scan once that last 10 minutes. I might have a panic attack, but if not that, I know i will still be very irritated and rage filled, its just how my dyphoric mania is.
The reason I am getting this test done is to check for any seizure disorder, but what my parents don't understand is that i have to go to the psychiatrist and get some medicine for my d**n bipolar. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 4 years ago, and since my last doc visit 2 years ago, I haven't had insurance and my parents aint doing nothing about it. BTW I am 19.
Not even my d**n neurologist cares about me being bipolar.....
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