Dream interpretation asked: Dream from 20 years ago still haunts me?

Question

I stand in a large ballroom, red carpet on the floor. Tables are arranged with white cloth and stacked with crystal and silverware. Although it is a room, it feels as if it stretches forever, and I clench the hand of my mother by my side. I know that I am dressed in formal clothing, full of frills, black in color. My mother wears a dress, but I cannot remember the color it had.

I know I am smaller than my mother, reaching to her waist.

Above the tables are chandeliers, large crystal chandeliers spreading a subdued yellow light. The room seems bright.

Then, I notice a creature sitting on the chandelier; it is small and deformed. It is ugly and dark. It is looking down in the room, and looking at the people, as if observing them.

As its gaze travels, it notices I can see it. Instinctively, I point at the creature and say "Mommy, there's a creature on the chandelier".

As I say this, the creature opens its eyes real wide and screams loudly, and I wake up.

Answer 1

I do not usually delve into this area because it sounds crazy and many people do not believe in an existence beyond what they can see and feel but...

Because the dream had such an incredible impression on you and has made you feel strange and "cut off" from yourself it makes me wonder if the creature was more than a dream. I say this because you say there was nothing in your life at that point that would have made you create such a creature in your own mind. It certainly does sound like something from outside yourself and it may still be with you.

I am taking a risk saying this because people will probably think I'm nuts and givesme thumbs down or whatever but I'm telling you this because it might help. It will be a long journey if you choose to go down this path of investigation but what the h**l...what else are you going to do, right? If you haven't already, learn a bit about metaphysics and the 7 planes of existence. This may well lead you to a place where you can figure out what that creauture was, what the dream was all about and what it all means.

If that's a bit beyond what you'd consider sane then try lucid dreaming. You can teach yourself to do this by regularly asking yourself "Am I dreaming?" and, eventually you will find that you are dreaming. This is when you can start to control the dream. Once you've done this a few times try to take yourself back to that time and place and look at it anew with the wisdom and experience that you have gained in the last 20 years. Who knows, you may find your answer.

http://www.astraldynamics.com/ The book Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce may help. I found it interesting at least. http://www.astraldynamics.com/library/?B...

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/1... also this book. Haven't read it but have heard good things.

Answer 2

Seek God, that's a dream about your gift and a evil spirit is that monster. He screams when you shed the light on him. Because he don't want you to know he's affecting you or your someone around you.

(I usually don't do this, but hey, its a gift:D)

Answer 3

i cannot help you as much as you can help yourself, but i will try my best to lead you to those answers.

is there anything in your past that you regret?

do you have anyfears?

is your mother still alive? or is your father still alive?

do you have any pets or animals living near you?

where could you compare this room to?

i hope i could help you help yourself :D

Answer 4

I can only tell you that your dream is similar to mine and I know why I'm having it, it's because in my past I've been hurt by someone and I needed my mother but she didn't come on time. Even today she blames herself for it and secretly I do too, so I think that in the moment when I manage to get over it I'll stop having that same dream that I have occasionally.

Answer 5

I'm not sure but whenever I move house I always get a wierd dream about random stuff.

is there something that follows the dream during the next few days?

Answer 6

It is easy to see why this dream still haunts you - it portrays something rather murky, by time likely, from your past which has been influenced by early childhood perceptions.

The red carpet suggests warning of something of danger - that you are standing in a place of hazard.  While vividly attractive, it is in sheer contrast to the white cloth on the tables.  The wares stacked on the tables indicates an opulence of setting - something of wealth or a rich experience to come in this formal place.  Your own dress suggests an active role in something to happen in this intimidating place.  The chandalliers are somewhat normal to such settings - and the infinite size may stem from early memories of just such a place, something not fully recalled now: very large rooms can easily awe a youngster and leave an impression of 'the infinite'.

That you do not recall your mother's dress fully is likely because of the overwhelming visuals otherwise before you - whether of a real time and place or imagined for some reason.  The greater mystery would stem from this being a product of your imagination, driven by some knowledge of perception of something around you or by a real event.

The odd creature lends something of the mind - that would of course not likely have been a literal thing, but think of the over-awing sensation you may have felt.  It is dim up there - the floor area rather vivid - and again, intimidating.  It is a place of strangeness - what might be watching in this starkly vivid place of some beauty but mystery and even menace to a youngster.  You wish the thing to be understood - and perhaps to end.  The creature lends a horrible finality to the thing.

The dream is well rooted in childhood perceptions then - it is possibly an amalgam of real things observed and things imagined, much of them related to some real event.  The creature is more of a representative of a feeling you had at the time than something real.  Things are not yet settled there, the event is not yet underway but there may have been anxiety over what was to come - and you role whether actively before others or as a visible guest.

It is the vivid imagery that seems to have stuck in your mind - the message itself having faded over time.  Think back to the events of your early life: could there have been a place and event of formality that was fresh to you and perhaps beyond your understanding and comfort zone as you understood things then?  It does not seem to carry ominous messages and such - only haunting imagery from the perceptions of a youngster.

Consider these things against the context of your own past experiences and memories - perhaps this will trigger some vital recollection that will help explain things.

All the best to you.

ADDED: Thank you for the additional detail – that may help.

Absent any recollection of some key event or place that could have generated this one then must of course consider the symbology more carefully and what the ‘message’ may be.  It is most definite that some deeper meaning attaches because of the intensity of feelings you have described.

You have ably determined that religious or similar ceremonial events are not related – but you do hold a correlation between weddings as likely for such a place.  Most people might consider a church to be the more typical venue for that – but of course receptions often happen in such places, so perhaps that is the reference.  In any case, you do not recall such an occasion.

Not having experienced real regrets or tragedies, being independent and quiet and one who is not easily intimidated all suggest a couple of things about you that may help: you have a strong constitution and tend to keep your own counsel.  

That you clench your mother’s hands and were of a small size at the time indicates a time of dependence, even if your spirit was one even then of being independent of mind – perhaps in a more fledgling way.

The formality of the setting, including your own attire, may indicate an expectation of things in the future – a setting of success that may have been expected of you.  Were you ‘given much’ – and therefore under the expectation of others that ‘much then is expected’ perhaps?  Were you encouraged by others to see yourself as one who should grow in a certain direction – one that may have not been so appealing to you personally?  If so, your own budding independent spirit may have been in conflict with what was being counseled by others at that time in your young life.  Your dream could be a manifestation of conflict in that manner.

How so?  You are bonded to your mother in a framework of opulence.  You are standing on red carpet – perhaps vividly beautiful but screaming ‘dangerous ground’ even as you took that in.  In vivid contrast is the white cloth on tables – purity, a stark expectation of higher achievement.  The accouterments on the tables are lavish and the chandeliers finish the touch – you are under the muted light of a cloying extravagance.

And there sits this tormentor – the odd creature who locks eyes and watches.  Who, or what is that creature in your life, and why in this setting must you alert you mother as to its presence and action?

So, why did you emerge feeling cut-off by this thing – the dreaming event itself leaving you with a feeling of uneasiness – apparently to this day?  You state you have no ‘regrets’, but you do describe this lingering feeling and that the ‘event’ was ‘guilty’ of creating your feelings.

Consider whether despite your attributes of independence and quiet, firm nature you may have gone in a direction in life that pleased others but may not be true to your own instincts.  That creature may have been something within yourself that watched – and finally protested this direction.  You were obedient to your mother in that scene – and then seeing ‘truth’, you may well have called out to her the meaning of the truth within you at the same time by alerting her to the creature.  

The creature then cries out and spoils the opulent setting where one might imagine your life unfolding before you – as envisioned by others.  Consider that your mother is ‘in control’ – what is there probably represents her expectations.  In that it remains alien to you to this day indicates that you did not share her attachment.

Can it be that not wishing to be disobedient about what was expected, the truth could not come from directly within you, but only from this ‘external’ creature that looks on what is before you – a displaced inner self?  The creature may thus both d**n what is not right for you and decry your own pointing at the ‘truth’.  

You find yourself then ‘cut-off’ from your own being – something that has followed you all this time.  Did you follow the way expected by others?  

You also find yourself uneasy – still so.  Did even that remote protest, that of the creature and not your own lips, leave you feeling ill at ease about having made any form of protest to your mother - even by indirect protest by having pointed out the actions and therefore intentions of the creature?  

Finally, consider again that the creature may truly represent what was within you – what was there may have been anathema to what was expected by your elders – whom you respected (consider the clenched hand again).  The creature was therefore disagreeable, if truthful.  You could not personally cry out in protest of the red, white and glitter before you – to do so would be disloyal to another who expected these things of you.  The creature shrieks the truth and is ugly for it.  Perhaps this you could not do – the creature does it for you.

No regrets?  Why lingering unease?  Independent of nature?  Why cut-off from yourself?  Ask yourself these things – they are not truly mutually exclusive – you may be functionally without nagging regret with regard to how you feel about your actions and others in life, and quite independent in your abilities – all the while coping with something denied yourself and personally uneasy with the direction taken in life.  A direction not truly yours, but that expected by others – consider this.

What can I know?  You know best – but perhaps this additional review may trigger yet something else.  These do not have to be major feelings to nag and leave you feeling as you do, and perhaps you have the youth and vitality to redirect things a bit if you find these things to be true in some way.  To identify them and redirect your ambitions accordingly is to find freedom from the dream and feelings attached to it.  Life is too long to live cut-off from one’s self and ill at ease for the sake of others – consider that before real regrets do occur.

All the best to you as always.