so here's the story:
last year i joined the volleyball team. since i was in 11th grade i was automatically put on varsity, even tho i hadnt played volleyball in 3 years. i loved the sport tho. it was exciting, but pressuring, because if i wasnt good the other girls would hate me. some already did - they prevented me from joining their summer program. it was aweful. but i really wanted to play. i practiced all summer before the season began. i practiced every day after practices and games. i did hours of workouts on the weekends to raise my stamina and to tone my body. i lost weight and it felt wonderful. i kept going. i restricted my calorie intake to 600 a day. if i ate something "bad" i threw it up. i got better and better at the sport. with each pound shed, i moved faster, jumped higher, spiked harder. we won all of our games, with me as one of the top players. girls i thought that hated me complimented me all of the time. it was a dream come true. then at one game, it was my turn to serve, and i blacked out. i found myself in a hospital. i had dehydration, malnutrition, diagnosed as depressed and with an eating disorder. i am better now - a year later - and want to return to the squad. is this a bad idea? how will people react?
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