This again was written by my friend, it’s an old poem she wrote in 2005 when she was 15….a lot has changed since then, she would probably kill me if she read it on here. But I think it’s a beautiful write.
I was drawn to you from the first time we met
talking to you in the silver moonlight of December
I didn't know how to act around someone like you, I was young yet
Your strong, silent demeanor made me stutter...I wonder if you remember
We walked around the church searching for my choir
those 20 minutes felt like forever
I've heard in recent past that your interest in me was like fire
but while you had already loved another, I had never
I saw you, sometimes, in the ensuing weeks
and we flirted shyly with no regard to consequence
Those hours were few but induced wishes, and I learned what to seek...
though, knowing you had another, none of it made sense.
We got lost in each others' eyes sitting in your silver truck
parked in the lot by Olive Garden where Laura was waiting
Though amorous I was, my mind knew I would never have such luck
even if you chose me I could never hide from THEM our dating
You sat close to me at Friday's with your warmth and camel eyelashes...
my stomach filled with butterflies and I got a case of the giggles
listening to "Orion" I knew that I wanted you and my morals did clash
I felt pure attraction to you when you ticked me and I had the wiggles
I was crushed when you chose her over me
crying after you hung up the phone, I should have known better
than to start falling for a man who couldn't see
that he deserved to be treated better than what he let her
Although I tried (God how I tried), I never forgot
how I felt the Sun when I was near you
how when you spoke you made my cheeks grow hot
I wondered if I made you feel that way too
I tried to forget your clear blue eyes
and your voice that was a paradox in my soul.
I couldn't forget our awkward goodbyes
and how your absence left a surprising hole
I employed indifference with only my mind
ignoring any attempts of remembrance by my mutinous heart
I convinced myself that you weren't my kind
better off that our romance never did start
Little did I know but around this time
she gave your heart back as a box of confetti
how could I know that you wanted to be mine...
God saved our poor worn hearts for each other, for when we were ready
I met someone that I thought would be perfect
we shared many interests and I almost fell in love
A few dates later...we were learning how to be direct...
but I was blind to reason, and didn't see the signs from above
He told me in a rather frank fashion
that he was only with me to derive what he wanted
he was drowning in lust, an unchaste attraction
my heart turned to stone in an instant, and the thought of love daunted
Frozen in ice my heart did beat
met another and forced myself on
I tried to ignore the absence of heat
and how he was inevitably wrong
Every day I was with him I suppressed a thought
and tried not to remember how I saw your face sometimes when we kissed
I couldn't decide what was right and my heart and mind fought...
dreaded to think of you...what I might have missed.
The day arrived when my mind was decided
I left him, I crying, and him shivering on the swing set
you appeared in my mind like the Sun and my desires collided...
I still remember the day we first met.
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