Extreme fear of going back to school?

Question

I get really bad panic attacks when I think of going back to school. My mom mentioned my getting a doctors appointment before school starts, and I was speechless and shocked. I've had plans to kill myself before the school year started, and I don't know if I can make it or not. I can't handle the stress, the people who make fun of me, the dirty looks, having no friends, sitting alone at lunch. I am so painfully shy as well. I don't think therapy would help this far into the summer. I don't know what to do. I keep having "nightmares" about going back to school, and extreme panic attacks. What do I do?

Answer 1

move to another place ansd starrtt a new lfie

Answer 2

seems to be a cese of schoolitis...

Answer 3

I'm sorry you are going through so much at such a young age.  I remember having more or less the same problems that you are having now while I was in middle school/early high school.  It was by far the most difficult period of my life and it literally never seemed to end.  I stuck it out just because I knew I needed a high school diploma but there were plenty of days that I skipped because I hated the people who were surrounding me.  How did I get beyond it?

1) I kept my grades up.  You need to keep a high GPA or else all your doing is letting the people who are brutalizing you win.  

2) I got a job.  It sounds silly but I really do believe that kids assign far too much importance to school because it is their entire world.  Their entire social life, professional life, and academic life occurs within a few walls.  Getting a job allows you to put everything into perspective.  Had a bad day at school? You might have a good day at work!  Someone at school doesn't like you? Too bad, you've got friends from work!

3) I finished high school, graduated college, and now am in law school at a top ranked program.  Nothing feels better then coming back to my home town to see the people who called me a loser working at a menial job struggling while I'm doing so well.  

Please put everything into perspective.  No one is worth killing yourself over and the bad things in life aren't worth overlooking the good things.  Try to focus on your studies, find something else you can do outside of school, and just endure.  I promise everything will get better if you focus on what is really important.

As for the panic attacks, you might need to see a psychologist and get a prescription for some anti-anxiety drugs or at least find someone to talk to.  You would be surprised at how much good talking can do for someone.  

Answer 4

Hmm. Judging by what you've said, you have a fear of the people there not the idea of school itself.

What do you fear? Are you bullied? Is it having no friends there?

If you tell us what you fear about school, then we are one step closer to helping you.

Lets say you are bullied, don't be afraid to stand up for yourself, they are worth less than the dirt beneath your finger nails and they're most likely cowards. If they shout abuse ignore it, it's pointless reacting to such a thing. If they hit you report them to your head of year or headteacher (Principal if you're American). The longer you let them control you, the more control they will have.

If you're unhappy because you have no friends then the start of the year is the perfect time to make some friends. Just say hi to whoever you sit next to in class and just chat a little and you'll be friends in no time and then they'll get you in with their friends too so you'll have a load of friends with no trouble. Don't be afraid to talk to people.

Hope this is helpful to you, I'll check back in here tomorrow or sometime.

Later.

Answer 5

Hey!I went through exactly the same thing when I was 15....I left school and graduated through Penn Foster and I never regret it cause I had 3 awesome years and lots of time to think things over.But it was my way and it probably isn't yours.Talk to your parents and I know counceling seems scary but it really helps lots of people.Even if you hide now you'll have to get strong and go back to real world one day....and the longer you were away the harder it gets to get back.I'm still coping with it though all the **** made me stronger.I'm sorry that you feel this way cause I know better than anyone how hard it is,and I don't know why me...or why you?We just have to find the right way and learn from it.Good luck baby!!:):)God bless you!!