Extremely suicidal. im actually getting scared?

Question

i'm 18. just got out of high school in january. the entire time was a complete disaster. the only reaon i didn't do anything then was because i kept thinking i would feel better when i got out. go to college, get a job.

quick run down.

father committed suicide (i TRUELY think my mother did it)

both brothers are dead.

one side of the family hates me bcause i won't do drugs/ gangs/ crime.

the other thinks i'm useless because i don't have a job. idk what the unemployment rate is, but i know it's pretty bad. and i HAVE been trying my VERY HARDEST! hundreds of applications, a few interviews, 1 orientation... i just don't know anymore...

i gotta cut this short. personal reason.

but i'm serioualy on the brink of killing myself.

i don't want to die, i'm just sick of the pain. YEARS of pain.

Answer 1

maybe you should talk to a therapist and consider moving away from your family

Answer 2

try not to think about bad things...!

dont do drugs or anything like that!!

you should really be thinking about your education and getting a job!

and dont even think about killing yourself!!!u have a whole life to live and it WILL get better,so dont give up!!!try talking to a person you really trust :)

hey again...cant you ask some of your family members for money??or are they ALL juding you for somthing???

btw if you want to talk to me feel free to e-mail me :)

Answer 3

Wow... that is a lot to deal with.  But you ARE a strong person or you would have gave up a YEARS ago!  Nothing I can say can make everything okay for you but I urge you to find things that make you feel good about yourself... maybe volunteer at the local boys and girls club while you are waiting on a job.  Go out of your way to help people... Think about old people in retirement homes with no visitors... you can adopt an elderly person and make their life worth living.  You are so not the only person going through what feels like h**l but if you focus your attention on others you might see that you can use your energy to make it better for someone else and that can only have positive effects on you.  Email me if you need to chat.  I'm sorry you are down but it CAN get better!

Answer 4

hello,

i know im 14 but i feel i should answer your question.

firstly im so sorry to hear about whats happened with your mum and dad... but please dont kill your self..find someone you can really trust and talk to about all this ,it will help a lot, please. whatever you do dont go to the family who wants you to do drugs and thats..it will turn your life around.. which will spoil you as a person.. as you seem quite nice compared to your other family.

keep trying for a job..never know it maybe come true tomorrow.. keep smiling ;)

good luck and please add me as a contact if you want.. i have added you,

i know i havent helped much but i hope i have a little

xx

Answer 5

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry. I know saying sorry isn't going to help you but you've been through a lot. You should be proud of yourself for not giving up yet. Suicide is not the answer. Seriously. It's only a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know these terrible things have been going on for years but it doesn't mean that things can't get better. You NEED a change of scenery. Try going to a college far from your family. You should be proud of yourself for not giving into drugs/crime and gangs. I really admire the fact that you did that.

You're a strong person. You've survived a lot. That's what you are. You're a survivor. You have to just keep on fighting and make it throught this difficult time in your life. Things will get better. You just need to make some changes for the better. Surround yourself with loving people. Get a job. Doesn't really matter where you work. As long as you are making some money, that's a good start. Save up money. Then maybe buy a little cheap apartment in another place.

Please don't give up. You're so young and it would be such a mistake.

If you ever need anyone to talk to, please don't hesitate to email me. I'll always be here to help you out and talk you through whatever.

:)

Answer 6

Listen, you are going through a really bad time and it doesn't appear like it's going to get better over night.  First of all, let me give you credit for not turning to drugs which is what the majority of people would do in your situation.  Trust me, that will only make things worse.  Hang in there, find a trusted friend to talk to about it.  Go talk to a counselor or psyciatrist.  You truly need help and medication.  Good luck, I really hope things start looking up for you.  You're way too young to feel so old.

Answer 7

First, it is not your fault that you can't find a job. The economy is bleak and you are obviously trying hard. Second, don't listen to the side of the family trying to get you to do illegal things. That would make everything worse. Next, try to talk to friends about how you're feeling. They know you better than I do, so they might have better advice. Finally, don't kill yourself. It's not worth it. Just a little side note, praying could help you.