Hey...
past few days have been a little rough,
i've been kicked out for one night and my dad is getting increasingly aggressive towards me..
I was listening to music REALLY low, and im not just saying really low when it wasn't because that would be lying to myself and I want help..
So, my mum and dad were watching tv in the living room and I wasn't playing music at the time, but I went to youtube and I put on one song just to watch the guitar and the volume was miniscule...and just because my mum could hear it she has to be stubborn and make me put it off...though you could clearly hear the tv over it by far.
well...I didn't because I felt it was unfair toward me, Im not a ignorant person I just hate stuff like injustice.
so...my dad starts flippin out at me and like grabs my head and more or less pinned me against the sofa...I just kept cool
I cant remember what happend next..this was a few days ago, but..he threw my mobile phone on the lawn then and I couldn't find it for ages, and said that I wasn't sleeping in the house that night and he kept his word...so I had a rough nite in a park when it was raining .. :\
...also stupidly I met this guy who offered me JD that night, and I went back to his brothers place..and he tried persuading me in but I didn't and I realised how stupid and dangerous the streets were that night.
so yeah......I dont know where to go.
same happend yesterday I think, I come downstairs and my mum had her music on the pc, so I sit down at the pc and she automatically has a go at me presuming im going to put my music on when I wasn't..
I asked her if I could put one song on which was 5mins long, and I did....so it finished and she said nothing..so I carried on playing my music thinkin she didn't mind then about 20mins later I get a ear-load from my dad and mum saying that I was taking over the pc....
then she put her cd in and I played it for her, she could have just asked me! ...yeah and like my dad practically assaulted me on this occassion \:
I dont know what to do, it seems my parents are really stressy at me, and its all my fault though I cant really see what im doing? are my wrong?
help... :(
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