Feel like im falling apart .....=[?

Question

ok this all will sound stupid because i can get help iv'e been offered help but wont take it.

i've had an eating disorder for almost a year now i started to get better gained weight an started getting my life back on track then a few months ago i realised i felt totally out of control and now im bacxk were i started probably worse, i've eaten to much today and all i can think about is that im going to gain weight, i've started to self harm again and just don't want to be around anyone but my family when i'm out i panic. Although i realise im not how i was before all this started i can't admit i need help i feel i don't deserve it and i won't get help for my eating issues because to me im to fat to have anything wrong and think im imaganing all my problems ....i don't know what to do anymore ....=[

Answer 1

I can't really help you with the eating disorder because I um have one myself but for panic attacks, you have to breathe really slowly and it helps to make a hissing sound when you breathe out so you'll breathe slow. When I get panic attacks I can't really concentrate on my breathing, but if you can, do what I say and if you get that thing where sounds are like a loud blur in your ears, just cover your ears.

I hope you get well =]

xx

Answer 2

You may feel like you are back where you started but I would lay money on it you are not.  It's the same with depression, it goes in waves and many a time I've had a bad patch and at the time felt like I'm back where I started, but you never go right back it just feels like it at the time.

Low self-esteem and careless critical remarks made by others tend to be the cause of most eating disorders, and the fact that the person has such low self-esteem makes it so difficult for them to realise they need help and that how they see things is distorted and not how they really are.  

I've obviously never seen you, but I am absolutely 100% sure that you are not fat, in fact you are probably very far from being fat.  What you have to realise, and I know it is difficult, is that we are all EQUAL but DIFFERENT, and because we are all EQUAL you are just as deserving as anyone else.  You are NOT PERFECT and neither am I.  The difference is that I ACCEPT and LIKE myself as I am, whereas you don't; you are trying to change yourself.  

My ex-husband said to me this evening 'have you put weight on?', and I replied 'I might have done as I've not had the best of weeks (been comfort eating a bit) plus I haven't been doing my yoga.', but the thing is I didn't care what he thought or whether I'd put on a couple of pounds.  

What makes a person attractive and likeable is made up of many things, not just how they look - it's what's inside that counts, hence the age old saying 'beauty comes from within.'   When someone gives you a gift, you don't care what the wrapper is like, it's what's inside that matters.

Everytime you go to self-harm tell yourself that you are just like the rest of us, an IMPERFECT BUT BEAUTIFUL AND LOVEABLE human being.  You need to start feeding your mind and subconscious with positive affirmations

I know it's hard, but you do need to realise that you are just as worthy as anyone else, and that although you believe you are fat this is NOT how it really is.  You are NOT IMAGINING your problems what you ARE IMAGINING is that you are fat.  Please take that first step and get help, life is too short and too precious to spend it like this ..........................let the professionals be a judge of whether you fat or whether you are thin.  I truly believe that you would benefit enormously from some therapy in respect of your low self-esteem.  One of my friends has been having group therapy for low self-esteem and it has definitely helped.

Just think if you overcome your eating disorder you may one day find yourself helping others who find themselves in the same boat as you are in now.

I came close to having an eating disorder when I was 16/17 but luckily someone made me see the light, plus when I was in hospital for depression the girls with eating disorders used to come to the same Open Therapy sessions as I did so I learnt quite a lot about this condition.

Answer 3

My dear,

respect your body.that's all I can say.It's a gift that given to you and you have to be proud of it.eat well,sport can be really helpful.feed your life with joy.share your happy moment with family & friends,and remember that they are there to help you :) so smile :)

Answer 4

see a doctor call a hot line idk

Answer 5

You are a strong person you got help the first time and that was a an act of a very mature and strong minded person, and you were

glad you did. Now don't let all that good work go to waste, ask again!  Look on yourself as a lovely little child who is starting to

walk for the first time, you have fallen down, now you will get the

help of a (you name it) and walk more steps until you won't have

to look for help anymore and you are walking and jumping all on your own.

Good Luck" Little Child", from one who" has been there"

Answer 6

Your ok, you really are,just take a deep breath, read the answers,there are people on here who really know about this.wish you all the best