My life seems to be going down in a spiral. I feel so depressed. My best friend all of a sudden became a different person and ditched me, in a sense. To begin, he actually had a crush on a girl before and he hurt her emotionally. So they didn't talk to each other for like 3 years. During the 3 years, I became really good friends with him. He practically became my best friend. We played games together and everything. This past summer, he found a girl that he liked, and it motivated him to become more out-going. He started working out, got new hair, clothes, new personality, a whole new attitude. It's terrible. I'm happy that he changed himself so raise his self-esteem, but now he doesn't even notice I'm alive anymore. Whenever he's talking or whatever he never includes me in the conversation or tries to talk to me. I try to talk to him but he totally blows me off and follows his other friends, which are mine too. Now that he's so confident, he became friends with the girl he hurt before. I don't exist anymore. I'm stuck with myself and a few other people. If I knew he was going to be like this, I would've avoided being friends with him. I mean, just a few weeks ago, we were great friends, now, we're not even friends to each other anymore. He's starting to join sports and stuff to be closer to that one girl. I'm pretty fat, so I can't do sports. I'm not the best looking guy or fit guy. Nor am I the most social guy. I have problems with being social and making friends. Ever since I transferred to this new school 5 years ago, I've had trouble being confident in myself and watched reputation become the quiet guy or the loner guy. I'm feel so bad. I don't have enemies or anything, and I'm sure if I get some good tips, I can make new friends. I don't want to be clingy to my friend, but he's my best friend. What can I do? I have no one else. Please help me out. I'm really feeling down right now, and I don't know what else to do. And please don't tell me to tell him how I feel. I already told him he's changed and he told me that he hated his old self and he likes himself now. And since he's like my best friend, I don't have any other friend that I'd rather hang out with. Like I said, I'm not social. I get caught up in the anxiety and say stupid things where people just ignore me. Sigh...any tips on that? Please give me a well thought out response. Thank you.
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