Feeling low right now...?

Question

well ive just got back from holiday and i go back to school in a couple of weeks, but i just feel down atm, almost as if i wanna cry but i dont know why.

i like being on my own but i just feel like kinda lonely. erm..well i liked this guy for months and well he dosent really like me, i get rejected all the time and it feels like i got no hope. i mean i havent really cared lately i mean i think well im fine without other people in my life, i have friends, i have my family and pets at home, so its not really about relationships, i guess i just dont have much of a connection with the people im around and it just makes me feel a bit wierd. ive been really detached from people lately.

this year ive been worrying non-stop all my exams i have to do but cant get my around, then my temper and that getting worse and alot of people have been concerned about me this year, i thought i was going psycho and crazy on everyone but i kinda know im not now, cz im not all bad, im a nice person, but i just dont always come across as if i care. ive been going out of my head the past few weeks because i think i have ocd and im too scared to talk to anoyone about it.

this year things seem out of control, my grades are slipping, i feel more alone, and i feel more whacko than i normally am. i mean my normality before all this was jumping around being hyper talking ALL THE TIME and id get the occasional bad thought, but now i cant stop thinking i dont know how to switch off and my sleep is always changing alot from 4hours one night to 12 another. things have changed alot this year, im always worrying thinking somethings wrong with me and i think to myself if im this obsessed then maybe i do have something wrong with me but never what i think. maybe im just a bored teenager who lacks a social life, or maybe this is growing up, but i dont like it one bit, i want to be as normal as i could ever be, because i was never normal but i was never this crazy.

this is mainly just to get all this off my chest but if anyone has any advise or something to say it would be nice to hear, unless you wanna insult me then im not in the mood for that.

Answer 1

i feel upset now too  you are not alone...i teach and it's funny cause the students always think teachers can't wait to get back!!! sorry but not me...very sad the summer is almost over like 6 more days til i go back:(

Answer 2

Sounds like you might be bipolar my Grandmother was.  She was up then down, then up and then down, just like a roller coaster.  When she was up she could do anything, when she was down it was low down.  Right now you should keep up with your studies, this is what will carry you for the rest of your life.  Try picking on a guy who will relay like you.  He might not be the best guy in class. He doesn't have to be a total dweeb,  but there are allot of guys that Willl worship the ground you walk on, and hey you got the power.  think outside the box, if that doesn't work, think inside th box.

Answer 3

It sound slike you are depressed... Maybe you could see a therapist for a few sessions, you may not feel so alone. I can definitely relate to how you feel... Maybe try to go to the book store and get an inspirational book that can keep you thinking positive.  Sometimes it is so easy to get carried away with negative thoughts and feel miserable but constantly try to think positive whether that means sticking post-its up that say "Stay Positive" or whatver you like.  I know that sounds cheesy but it may help.

Good luck!

Answer 4

It's okay... well, It'll be okay. I know it seems you are at rock-bottom, but know that if your at the bottom, it'll only get better. Talk to friends and family, Pray to God, read the bible. If you don't believe in Christ- it's never to late. Please let me know how things go, I am here for you!

Good LucK!

Answer 5

OMG! I relate with everything you say. I hope you post more because I feel your pain. Especially this part:

i dont really know if i have it in me to love someone. parents are jst there, friends im clingy too but they often dissapoint me, the only things im capable of loving are my pets and ive had many animals in my home but they cant make me as happy and fuffilled stil. i often feel empty.

I'm the exact same way right now, especially the love thing and the friends disappointing you part.  

Answer 6

go love something, go care for something, and hope to get in the best college

my favorite quote:

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for." - Joseph Addison

edit: i don't know if this helps but... some people turn to loving god.

Answer 7

Im right there with ya honey, but ya just gotta think that it always gets better :) SMILE